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Her mother’s murder had changed everything, and as Evelyn Sinclair gazed out of her bedroom window and looked up at the stars, she could not help but wonder if her mother might be gazing back.

Where dae souls go when they die?

The pastor had said her mother was in heaven, but then why did Evelyn feel her close by on occasion? Did she come down from heaven just to be with her, or had her spirit never left?

She wished she knew, but everyone she asked gave her a different answer. Some told her she was with the gods, others told her heaven, still others told her that she was with Evelyn right now, and had never left her. It was all very confusing. Wherever she was, Evelyn hoped she was now at peace. Her greatest wish, of course, would have been for her mother to still be alive, never having left her, but it was only that, a wish. A wish that could never come true.

“I miss ye, Maither,” Evelyn whispered while gazing out into the night sky. “I miss ye so much.”

It had been nine months since her passing, and though the ache in Evelyn’s heart had eased a little, there were days when the grief nearly overwhelmed her. Her mother had been snatched too soon – with them one day, and gone the next. What Evelyn would give for one last warm hug or one last tender kiss. She hadn’t even had a chance to say goodbye.

Her father, Laird Donald Sinclair, had been inconsolable ever since. Cocooned in his study when he was not leading a battle against Laird Keith’s men, his mood had affected everyone across Sinclair Castle and beyond. Once an affectionate man who welcomed his daughters with open arms, he had barely spoken to them, and both Evelyn, and her younger sister, Yvaine, had been forced to come to terms with their mother’s death on their own.

At least they had each other, for now.

Talk had travelled through the castle that her father had been considering an alliance to protect them from the heinous machinations of Laird Keith. The man who had murdered her mother.

Of course, along with the alliance, there was bound to be a union, an arranged marriage. Evelyn was the oldest, and thus, it was obvious it would be she who was sent away and married off. Upon hearing the gossip, Evelyn had been distraught. In a conversation with her sister only that morning, she had worriedly expressed her fears.

“He will marry me off tae some old man,” Evelyn had said, pacing the floor of the drawing room the sisters were in.

“Evelyn, they are only rumors,” Yvaine had soothed.

“Ye ken as well as I, that there is nae smoke without fire, Yvaine,” Evelyn had retorted. “Besides, it makes perfect sense. I’ve overheard the soldiers talking in the stables. They fear our army isnae strong enough tae take any more assaults. We’ve already lost so many men. Faither needs help. There will be an alliance, and I bet all o’ me possessions that it will be agreed by marriage.”

“I think ye’re jumping tae conclusions,” Yvaine had replied. “Besides, if Faither was tae dae such a thing, dae ye nae think he would have come and spoken tae ye about it by now?”

“Och, aye,” Evelyn had replied with sarcasm. “Because he’s been so forthcoming with conversation these last few months, hasnae he?”

Yvaine had sighed and shrugged. “All right, maybe he wouldnae come and tell ye. I still think ye’re running ahead o’ yersel’. What’s the point o’ getting so flustered when ye dinnae even ken it’s true?”

Evelyn had looked Yvaine straight in the eye, and pressing a hand to her stomach, she had said, “Because I feel it in me gut, sister. I dinnae need tae guess. I just ken it.”

Now, as she continued to gaze up at the bejeweled sky, wondering where her mother’s spirit was, Evelyn suddenly gasped at the sight of a shooting star. Closing her eyes tight, she made a wish.

“I wish tae find true love,” she whispered. “If I am tae marry, let it be tae a man I can fall in love with.”

When she opened her eyes again, the star was gone, but Evelyn continued to search the sky in case of another.

Was her wish too much to ask for?

Her mother and father had been completely in love, and Evelyn had spent her entire life watching the way they treated each other. Mary, her mother, always soft spoken and elegant, had gazed adoringly at her husband on many occasions, and her father had worshipped the very ground her mother walked upon.

Evelyn was certain they had their disagreements but if they did, they were never in public, for she could not recall one time where her parents had been at odds with each other.

She wanted that kind of love. The kind of love where her husband looked upon her like she was the only woman on earth. That’s how her father had looked at her mother, and that was what she wanted for herself.

Evelyn sighed and pushed herself from the window. Padding across the room, she climbed into bed and slipped beneath the coverlets. From what she had seen, her mother and father’s love was one of a kind. In fact, at all the gatherings and parties her family had attended, she could not recall one time when she had seen other couples acting in such a manner.

“Perhaps it is a one o’ a kind sort of love,” she sighed, snuggling her head into her pillow and sleepily closing her eyes. “Perhaps it only happens once over many lifetimes. And perhaps, I will never be as lucky as Maither and Faither.”

The following morning, Evelyn was surprised to see her father sitting at the breakfast table. As she entered, Yvaine gave her a cursory glance before returning to buttering her bread.

The atmosphere was heavy when Evelyn settled herself, and wanting to break the tension, she turned to the head of the table.

“Good morning, Faither.”

He had been staring at the plate in front of him, and at her words, he looked up as though surprised to see her. Clearly, he had been in such a fixed state, he had not even noticed her entrance.

“Aye. Good morning,” he grunted.

Silence resumed as he poured his tea, and then ate the scone in front of him, all the while with his eyes lowered. Yvaine looked across the table at Evelyn, and jerked her head toward him, silently asking her to speak to him again, but Evelyn frowned, for in truth, she had no idea what to say. However, the tension was, once again, unbearable, and taking a deep breath in, she looked back to her father.

“Are ye well this morning, Faither?”

He raised his eyes slowly to look at her, and for the longest moment, he didn’t speak, as though he had not heard her question. Stranger though, was the way he looked at Evelyn. He looked pained, troubled, as though a great weight sat upon his shoulders.

“Nae,” he said eventually. “I am nae well at all. In fact, I have news tae tell ye that pains me greatly.”

Evelyn’s pulse quickened, and flashing a glance at Yvaine, who now looked worried, she took her gaze back to the tired and weary man who sat beside her. Too scared to ask what news he had, Evelyn could only sit there in trepidation, waiting for the words she knew were to come.

“We are struggling, Evelyn. With Keith’s attacks, our losses are great. In fact, the army now holds half the men it did six months ago. We cannae sustain this onslaught for much longer, and the only way tae avoid further attacks is if I make an alliance with another clan.”

Every part of her stiffened at his words, for just as she had predicted, the rumors were true.

“But this alliance brings with it stipulations.” The older man heaved a sigh, and did not speak for another moment.

Evelyn wanted to grab him and shake the stipulations from him, but instead, she sat there, as still as death, waiting for the inevitable.

“Ye are tae be married, Evelyn,” her father said plainly. “I ken these are nae the words ye want tae hear. I dinnae particularly want tae be speaking them. But the fact o’ the matter is this. Without this alliance, the clan will soon be whittled down tae naething. Without an army, we cannae defend ourselves. And once we cannae defend ourselves, Laird Keith will break through our walls and take whatever he desires.” He looked at her intently. “Including ye.” He then looked at Yvaine. “And ye.”

He sighed heavily and shook his head. Then he stood abruptly and stormed away from the table. Just as he was about to leave the room, he stopped and said, “Ye cannae ken how much this breaks me heart, Evelyn, but I must protect the clan.”

Then he left the room, leaving Evelyn and Yvaine to deal with whatever thoughts were passing through their minds.

“Ye were right,” Yvaine whispered, looking utterly devastated. “Och, Evelyn. I’m so sorry.”

But Evelyn lifted her chin. “Ye heard Faither. I have tae dae it. It’s fer the survival o’ the clan. Laird Keith has already taken too much from us. I refuse tae let him take anymore.”

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Chapter One

Mackay Castle, the wedding of Laird Cathal Mackay

“We are surely going tae be hanged for ruining this wedding, Yvaine,” Evelyn Sinclair hissed at her younger sister. “We shouldnae be here.”

“Och, will ye stop fretting,” Yvaine replied evenly. “Dae ye nae remember why we came? We’re supposed tae be having some fun. Besides, our clan was invited. Ye ken that. If Faither had accepted, we’d have come here with him.”

They were slowly moving through the many people who already filled the corridor. Laughter and boisterous conversations met their ears, the women giggling, and the men guffawing. Tankards spilled their contents as the merrier guests hardly seemed to care where their drink ended up, and a faint trickle of music danced on the air as the sisters made their way to the great hall of Mackay Castle.

Evelyn brushed her long, dark blonde hair behind her ear and moved closer to her sister as they continued to maneuver through the crowd. “Aye, well,” she whispered. “There was never a chance o’ that happening. He’s nae the same anymore, so distant and secluded. He can barely look us in the eye, never mind anybody else.”

Yvaine looked at Evelyn sadly. “He did lose his wife, Evelyn.”

“And we lost our maither,” Evelyn countered. “But it has been a year already. He cannae mourn forever.”

“It isnae the same fer him. Ye ken that he blames himself. She was murdered tae punish him, and he cannae get past that.”

Evelyn could hardly argue, and perhaps her anger for her father’s lack of affection masked the sadness she felt for him and for herself. Their mother and father had adored each other, anyone with eyes had seen it. After her mother’s murder, her father, Laird Donald Sinclair, had not been the same.

She did try to understand how hard it was for him, but she and Yvaine had lost someone precious too. They had needed him over the last year. They had needed his love and support as they dealt with their own feelings of grief. But he had not been there for them. A part of him had died with his wife, and Evelyn had wondered, over the last months, if he would ever return from the darkness that still surrounded his being.

The further into the castle they ventured, the more her nerves grew. This was not something she or Yvaine would normally do. Holding integrity in high esteem, they didn’t break the rules. Evelyn fingered the necklace at her throat. It was a gift from her mother, and thus, more precious to her than anything else she owned. Yvaine was right. Their clan had been invited, but her father had declined, and thus, none of the Sinclair clan were expected to be there. More than that, though, Donald Sinclair did not know his daughters had sneakily left the castle that evening and travelled the couple of hours to attend the wedding feast of Laird Mackay.

It had been Yvaine’s idea.

***The previous afternoon, the sisters had been walking in the gardens of their father’s castle. Yvaine had been trying to cheer Evelyn up, but there was nothing she could say to lift her spirits.

“Life isnae fair,” Yvaine had said. “What Faither is making ye dae isnae fair either.”

Evelyn had shrugged. “We need the alliance. What am I supposed tae dae? Run away? I have nay choice, Yvaine. I have tae marry him.”

“But ye havenae even met him. Faither is being cruel.”

Evelyn heaved a huge sigh. “I will meet him in a few weeks when we travel to Laird Audor Gunn’s castle,” she had murmured, a little frustration creeping into her tone.

The sisters had walked for a little while longer, when Yvaine had suddenly gasped, spun to look at Evelyn, and blurted, “I have an idea.”

Evelyn had tilted her head, raised her eyebrows, and looked at Yvaine knowingly. “Ye cannae convince him. I’ve tried. He willnae listen.”

Yvaine shook her head. “It’s nae about Faither. It’s about Laird Mackay’s wedding.”

Evelyn frowned then. “What about it?”

“We should go,” Yvaine had blurted excitedly. “As a rebellion against yer destiny, we can sneak out and go tae Mackay Castle. I’ve heard it’s going tae be a huge affair. Laird Cathal Mackay is our ally, and besides, it will only take an hour or so tae reach them across the border o’ the clan lands.”

At first, Evelyn had been appalled. “That is a crazy idea. What if we get caught? What if Faither finds out? What if someone sees us?”

While Yvaine was someone who ordinarily would never go against her father, or anyone else for that matter, she surprised Evelyn with her answer. “Who cares? What possible punishment could be worse than forcing ye tae marry a man ye dinnae even ken? Ye deserve tae have a little fun and forget about everything. A final revolt before yer life is nae longer yer own.”

Evelyn had still been unsure. They would be taking a huge risk. But upon seeing Yvaine’s eagerness and knowing that even suggesting such a thing went against her character in every way, Evelyn had realized her sister was doing this for her. She was willing to risk getting into trouble just so Evelyn could have one night of freedom.

“All right,” Evelyn had finally agreed.

***Once in the great hall, Evelyn’s nerves settled a little. Perhaps it was the joyous atmosphere of laughter, or the sight of people dancing to the thump of the bodhran drum, the fiddle, and the tin whistle.

“Ye see,” Yvaine smiled, handing Evelyn a drink, “are ye nae glad we came now?”

“I am,” Evelyn replied. “But if Faither discovers it, I’m going tae tell him it was all yer idea.”

Yvaine burst into laughter. “And I will tell him it was yers.”

The two sisters giggled at each other, and feeling a little more relaxed, they began to mingle with the other guests. Evelyn discovered that people had travelled from across the country to attend the wedding. Laird Mackay was a good man with a fine reputation. Unlike many other lairds, he was neither bloodthirsty nor power mad, which, she supposed, was one of the reasons her father had allied with him many years before.

Evelyn and Yvaine had just left from conversing with a young lass, when Yvaine found herself grabbed by a hand. Evelyn watched as a tall and handsome man jerked his head toward the middle of the room.

“Come and dance with me?” he yelled over the music and boisterous noise of the gathering.

The question was asked while he pulled Yvaine along with him, and thus, she hardly had a chance to refuse. But she was laughing as she went, and watching her go, Evelyn smiled widely at her sister having such fun.

Feeling a little out of place, given she was now left to stand by herself, Evelyn carefully threaded through the crowd and made her way to the back corner of the room. Picking her spot, she stood and watched the guests having fun with laughter and rowdy conversation. But even as she was surrounded by such gaiety, a sadness slowly washed over her as thoughts of her future arose in her mind. Her father had arranged her marriage for the betterment of the clan. They needed this alliance, she knew that, and that had been the reason that she had not argued or fought his decision.

Self-sacrificing as always, Evelyn knew she had to put the clan before her needs and desires. Her mother’s murder had been a punishment. A dreadful circumstance that Evelyn did not want repeated. Marrying Laird Ardor Gunn would ensure that, and thus, what choice did she really have?

“What’s a pretty young lass like yersel’ doing standing alone in the corner?”

Evelyn had been too lost in her thoughts to see anyone approach, but at the sound of that question, she turned her head and lifted her eyes. A handsome man stood there smiling down at her. A little taken aback at his forwardness, Evelyn did not know what to say in reply, and thus, stood there gawping at him.

“Cat got yer tongue?” he drawled, his mouth forming a lob-sided grin.

“I, er, nay. It’s just…” Evelyn floundered.

“Ye’ve never spoken tae a man ‘afore?” he joked, taking a step toward her.

Still not certain of her words, and feeling caught off guard, she nodded and shook her head at the same time.

This elicited a deep chuckle from the man’s throat. “Is that an aye or a nae? I cannae tell with yer head bobbling about like it’s nae attached tae yer neck.”

“O’ course, I’ve spoken tae a man ‘afore,” she said when she finally found her voice.

“Just nae such a handsome one.” He grinned widely.

She couldn’t tell if he was joking or just arrogant, but this interaction did not feel particularly pleasant, so she deduced the latter. Not wanting to be rude, her mind scrambled to find a way out of her circumstances.

“So here ye are, a beautiful lass, and here I am, a handsome man, both alone at the ball. I declare that such a circumstance is a tragedy.”

“I’m sure there are plenty o’ lasses here who would be delighted tae have the pleasure o’ yer company,” Evelyn replied carefully, hoping the man would take the hint to find another lass to pursue.

The man took another step closer, his arm leaning on the wall beside her as he towered above her. “And what about ye?” he growled huskily. “Would ye nae like the pleasure o’ me company?”

“That’s nae what I meant,” she said quickly. “It’s just, ye ken, there are many lasses here.”

“Indeed, there are,” he growled again. “But I’m nae talking tae any o’ them. I’m talking tae ye. Dae ye nae find me handsome?”

Evelyn nodded just to placate the man, but her heart was thumping with fear and anger at the same time. “Ye are, indeed, a very handsome man.” Her words sounded shaky, and she felt her hands tremble with ire. Who daes he think he is tae speak tae a woman like this?

He chuckled again. “Ye’re a nervous wee thing. But very beautiful. I’ll bet those lips are as soft as heather.”

Unconsciously, Evelyn gasped. Could this man be any more rude?

By his raised eyebrows as he waited for her answer, he clearly did not think his behavior rude at all, which was concerning. Perhaps if she just answered him, he would be on his way. If he thought she lacked experience and was not as flirtatious as other lasses he had, no doubt, harassed, he might just leave her alone.

She huffed. “I’ve never been tempted tae kiss a man who isnae me husband.”

His eyes widened at that remark, and clearly surprised, he seemed lost for words. And yet, he still did not leave. Her plan had not worked as she hoped it might, and now stumped, Evelyn could not think of another way to be rid of him. Maybe she was going to have to be as rude as he, and simply walk away.

The man grinned mischievously down at her. “Maybe I could—”

“I dinnae think the lass is interested,” a deep voice came from somewhere behind the leering man’s shoulders.

Pushing himself from the wall, the persistent pest turned to look behind him. Evelyn struggled not to gasp again, for the man stood there was not only the most handsome man she had ever seen, he was also huge. He was a great wall of a man, nearly as tall as he was broad, with blonde hair. He had the look of a Viking and his piercing green eyes were currently locked in some kind of battle with the man now standing facing him.

“I dinnae think it’s any o’ yer damned business,” the man growled.

“It is when ye’re making the lass feel uncomfortable,” her savior, may the Gods bless him, growled back. “And, clearly,” he nodded toward Evelyn, “ye are.”

“We were just talking.”

“Nay,” the huge man replied. “Ye were talking. She was terrified. Now, move on, before I move ye on.”

For a second, the arrogant pursuer stood his ground, clearly too proud to do as he was told. The huge man then straightened his shoulders and puffed out his chest. The action made him look three inches taller.

“Fine,” the other man submitted. Trying to maintain his dignity as he shifted, he said, “She’s a prude anyway.”

Evelyn looked mortified, but relief flooded through her as he turned on his heels and stormed away.

Her savior watched the man go, before turning back to her. Taking a step forward, he gazed down at her with concern. “Are ye all right?” His tone was now far gentler than only seconds before.

For a moment, Evelyn was too lost in his swirling green eyes to answer. He was striking, as though the gods had carved his face by their own hand. Her own face flooded with heat again at what had transpired, and suddenly, she felt the need to escape. She wanted to be anywhere but there.

“Ye must excuse me,” she said hurriedly. “I need a breath o’ air.”

Before he had chance to reply, she darted around him and moved quickly out of the great hall.

Hurrying down the corridor, avoiding the eyes of those merrily celebrating around her, she rushed around a corner. That corridor was far quieter, and with no other people around, she tried the handle of the first door she came to. Evelyn, looking about her and realizing it was a library, stepped inside and closed the door quietly behind her. Leaning her body against it, she took in a deep breath.

Pushing herself off the door, she paced back and forth in the room. The experience had unnerved her, and try as she might, she could not rid her mind of what might have happened had she not have been saved. Either she’d have been forced against her will, or she’d have ended up scratching the oaf’s eyes out.

But all is good now, Evelyn. Ye are safe. Ye need tae calm yersel’.

Yes, she did. She also needed to go and find Yvaine. It was getting late. They still had an hour or so to travel, and as fun as sneaking away to the Mackay’s wedding had been, she did not want her father to discover they had left.

Straightening her dress, she turned to walk towards the library door, when it opened, and the huge, handsome stranger stepped inside. Upon discovering her, he frowned with concern. “There ye are. Are ye all right, Miss?”

Evelyn automatically stepped back. “I am fine. Thank ye.”

He shook his head. “Ye didnae look too fine when I found ye. MacKinley is a rake at best, but he has the awareness o’ a snail.”

A trickle of laughter fell from Evelyn’s lips, and, at the same time, the tension that had wound in her body seemed to ease.

“I apologize. I didnae even thank ye fer yer intervention. So, thank ye. He certainly is a persistent man.” And a halfwit.

“Aye,” the huge man rolled his eyes. “That’s putting it mildly.” He paused for a second, before looking at her carefully. “But I can understand his interest.”

Evelyn’s eyebrows went up.

“Nay, please.” He lifted his hands in surrender. “I’m naething like him. I’m merely observing the fact that ye are a very beautiful lass. That’s all.”

She felt her face flush and dropped her gaze at his words. In stark contrast, she did not fear this man like she had the other. His words were kind, and even the way he looked at her was different. His gaze was gentle, whereas MacKinley had leered at her like she was something to eat.

“Thank ye,” she breathed, feeling as though it was good manners to acknowledge the compliment.

He took another step toward her. It was slow and measured. He still watched her carefully, as though he was gauging how his approach might affect her. “I couldnae help overhearing some o’ yer conversation,” he said in a tender tone.

“Really?” Evelyn replied, now feeling a little breathless. Perhaps it was the way he was gazing at her. Perhaps it was the fact that he was indeed, a striking specimen of a man.

“Aye,” he said, taking another step. He was now only a few feet away. “I heard ye tell MacKinley that ye’ve never been kissed ‘afore.”

Another wave of heat washed over Evelyn, and again, she dropped her gaze. “I only said that tae be rid o’ him,” she breathed.

“Is that right?” the man said softly.

Evelyn felt his finger under her chin as he lifted her head. She looked up at him, her heart thumping like a drum in her breast.

“So, ye have been kissed ‘afore?” he continued, his eyes gazing into hers as though he were searching her soul for the truth. Could he see? Could he tell that she was lying?

“I, er. Well.” Evelyn flustered. She then shook her head. “The truth is, I have never been kissed.”

He took on more step forward and closed the gap between them. “That is a tragedy,” he whispered. “Wouldnae ye like tae ken what it feels like?”

Evelyn gazed up at him, her nerves mixing with fear and desire.

“Ye can say nae,” he said. “The door is right there. I willnae stop ye from leaving.”

But Evelyn did not want to leave. Sparks were flying between them, her heart thumped, her stomach squirmed, and the desire for the man before her was growing by the second.

“I dinnae want tae leave,” she breathed.

The man nodded, and then she felt his huge hand resting gently on her slender neck. A second later, his lips were upon hers. As his tongue slipped inside her mouth, exploring, tasting, entwining with hers, she opened her mouth wider and grabbed his tunic to pull him in closer.

Her heart thumped, and breathlessly, she gave herself to him. Their lips clashed together, their tongues roving hungrily as though neither had eaten for days.

His other hand, which had sat upon her waist, now climbed higher and higher, and Evelyn suddenly gasped when his fingers cupped her firm breast. Her nipple hardened, and upon finding it, the man growled as Evelyn moaned.

“Are ye sure ye’ve never been kissed ‘afore?” he whispered, his hot breath dancing upon her lips.

Evelyn could hardly speak, and while a small whimper left her lips, she shook her head. Threading her fingers through his hair, she caressed his neck, and felt a scar just below his left ear. I wonder where he got that?

It was the strangest thought under the circumstances, but the thought left as quickly as it had arrived as the man continued to speak.

“Then ye must never have been touched ‘afore either,” he said huskily, caressing her nipple and making it peak even harder.

“Oh, God,” she gasped.

Evelyn was feeling a lot of sensations she had never experienced before. Apart from her heart thumping so hard she thought it might burst from her rib cage, her stomach clenched and twisted, and she felt a moistness at the apex of her thighs.

“I wonder what ye taste like?” he growled again. “I would love tae be the first tae taste ye.”

At first, his words did not make any sense. He had tasted her… But the more she thought about them, however, the more she realized what he meant. The man was indeed handsome and huge, and under any other circumstances, she would have been delighted.

Life isnae fair. Imagine if I were nae betrothed tae be married. Imagine if I had the chance tae be with a man who excited me as much as I am excited in this very moment. But ye are betrothed, Evelyn. What the devil are ye doing?

As that thought flew through her mind, Evelyn quickly stepped back. She watched the surprise on the man’s face, and then she blurted, “I’m sorry.”

Seconds later, she spun on her heels, grabbed the door handle, and ran from the room.

And as he had promised, he didn’t follow her.

Chapter Two

Three weeks later, Gunn castle…

Benedict Gunn sat in a high-backed chair next to the roaring fire in his brother’s study, swirling the amber liquid around in the glass he lightly held in his hand. Audor, his twin brother, and laird of Clan Gunn, remained at his desk, examining rent payments.

“I still dinnae ken how ye can dae it,” Benedict said. “Marrying fer an alliance is one thing. But marrying a woman ye’ve never even met is a different thing entirely.”

Audor lifted his head and cocked an eyebrow. “We cannae all have romantic liaisons in the library, braither.”

“Fer all that came o’ it,” Benedict huffed.

“Ye are pining fer her,” Audor chuckled. “In fact, I’d go as far as tae say ye’re obsessed. I still cannae believe ye didnae catch her name. I tell ye, Benedict, ye are losing yer touch.”

Absently, Benedict brought his fingers to his lips as he remembered that kiss. His mouth had been too busy doing other things. Asking her name had not been important at the time. He supposed there might have been a chance afterward to do so, but it had ended as quickly as it had started, and then, she was gone.

“Obsessed is a bit o’ a strong word,” Benedict countered.

“Aye, maybe ye’re right. I mean, it’s nae like ye’ve been talking about her non-stop since it happened, right?” Ardor said, giving him a smug look.

Benedict could hardly deny it. In fact, he had been on a mission ever since, trying to discover who the lass was. Anyone he had spoken to had no idea who he was talking about, and other than being able to describe how beautiful she was, he really had nothing else to go on. It was like trying to find a needle in a haystack.

“I’m sure ye’ll meet up with her again,” Audor said. “She cannae be from such a distance if she was at Laird Mackay’s wedding.”

“Och, come on, Audor. Did ye see how many people were there? Did ye speak tae some o’ them? I spoke tae nae less than five people who had travelled from the far coast in the east.” Benedict shook his head. “It is hopeless. Nae one kens who she is, nor dae I have any clue where tae start looking.”

“Then I’ll just have tae find ye another pretty lass tae take yer mind off this one.” Audor grabbed the papers he had been examining and shuffling them together into a neat pile, he placed them on one side of his desk. Standing, he moved to the dresser and poured himself a drink, and then joined his brother at the fire.

“Besides,” he said, lowering himself down in a matching chair, “me wedding will occur shortly. I’m certain there will be plenty o’ lasses tae choose from there.”

“Aye, I’m sure that will make it all better,” Benedict replied sarcastically, giving his brother a knowing look.

Audor smirked at him, before taking a sip of his drink and turning his gaze to the flickering flames of the fire. “I may have tae be away again in a couple o’ days. If that is the case, I’ll need ye tae cover fer me once more.”

Benedict gazed at his brother. “Can ye nae tell me anything about what ye’re doing?”

“I’ve already told ye. It’s safer if ye dinnae ken. It’s safer if nay one kens right now. That’s why I’m nae telling the council. The only people that ken I’m away are ye and Killian.”

“Aye, only because he’s the only one who can tell us apart,” Benedict replied.

“Believe me, braither. It’s fer the best.”

By Audor’s tone, Benedict knew not to push the subject any further. He wished he could help him with whatever it was he was doing, but if Audor wouldn’t let him in on his plan, there was little he could do about it. If there was one thing Audor was good at, it was protecting his clan.

Loyal to a fault, he had always been an honest man, though he had been thrown into his lairdship far too young. Seven years had passed by so quickly, but not so quickly that either Benedict or Audor would ever forget the murder of their parents. They had only been three and twenty when it happened. Grown men they might have been, but neither of them was ready or had the experience to take control of the clan. And yet, they had been given little choice.

With their father gone, Audor had taken the lairdship and had been thrown into responsibilities he knew little about. The council had, of course, supported him completely, and now, seven years later, and at the age of thirty, his brother was a respected laird across the land.

“How long will ye be gone fer this time?”

Audor shrugged. “It’s hard tae tell, but—”

A knock on the door interrupted their conversation, and once Audor had bid the person to enter, they both turned to see Killian striding into the study. While he was the twins’ cousin, he looked nothing like either of them. His hair was short and black, his eyes were a deep blue, and the many battle scars across his body made him look more than intimidating.

When Killian’s parents were murdered, he had been just a boy six years old. Being his brother’s son, Laird Darragh Gunn, Benedict and Audor’s father, had taken him in and raised him as his own. Cousins they might be, but they were as close as brothers. Besides, it was not just family ties that bound them. They had all sustained the same wound. A wound that could not be seen with the naked eye. A wound that was deep and painful. Each of them had lost parents to murder, and while Benedict and Audor did, on occasion, speak about it, Killian remained closed down.

He was the best warrior in the clan. But Benedict knew that each battle took much more out of him than it might another man. After a drunken night where Killian, with loosened lips, had spoken of his pain, he had confessed to Benedict that he saw each and every enemy as though they were the one who had killed his parents.

His cousin hid his pain well, though. On the outside, he was easy-going and fun to be around. He liked the lasses and had bedded more than Benedict could number. He had always wondered, though, if that, too, had something to do with the burden he carried.

“A rider has informed me that Laird Sinclair and his entourage have been spotted on the hill,” Killian said, getting straight to the point. “Yer bride will likely be at the castle in the next half hour. We will meet them at the gates.”

“And good day tae ye, too, Killian,” Benedict teased.

Killian gave Benedict a playful scowl.

“Thank ye, Killian. Get a drink. Come, join us.” Audor gestured to a chair.

After filling a glass, Killian dropped himself down beside the brothers. “Are ye nervous?” he said, looking directly at Audor.

Audor shook his head and frowned. “What is there tae be nervous about? I’m getting married, nae going intae battle.”

“I dinnae ken,” Killian shrugged with a smirk, “some men might tell ye it’s the same thing.”

The men laughed at that comment.

“I’d be more worried about what yer future bride looks like,” Benedict added. “Ye’ve never met her. She might resemble a moose.”

Audor snorted at that comment, but Killian shook his head. “I think ye may be wrong there, Benedict. From what I’ve heard, both the Sinclair sisters are bonnie wee lasses.”

“Och, well. That’s all right then. She might nae have a brain in her skull, but at least she’ll be a pretty charm on yer arm,” Benedict sniggered.

“Aye, well. At least I ken where me sweetheart is, which is more than ye can say fer yers.”

Killian chuckled at that comment, and threw a knowing look at Benedict. “As usual, yer braither is right.”

“Aye. And doesnae he ken it?” Benedict growled playfully.

The men finished the last dregs of their drinks, and then Audor stood. “We should make a move here. I dinnae want our guests arriving without a proper welcome.”

When the three were out in the corridor, Killian continued the conversation. “Ye’re getting a rare privilege, Audor. Nay one has seen Laird Sinclair since his wife’s murder. In fact, I hear he hasnae left his castle since it happened.”

“Aye, it’s a sad affair. But it’s the reason this marriage is going ahead. Laird Alisdair Keith wanted an alliance with Clan Sinclair, even though he’d been a rival for years.”

“Aye, I ken,” Killian said. “When Sinclair refused, Keith had Mary, his wife, brutally murdered. He is not a man.”

Killian sounded angrier than he ought, under the circumstances, but Benedict could only imagine it was the fact that yet another parent had been murdered that angered him.

“Well, Laird Keith hasnae stopped there. He’s been relentless in his attacks ever since, which is why Laird Sinclair and I agreed tae this alliance. Our clan will get lands and coin, and he will get the support o’ our larger army.”

“I just hope ye ken what ye’re doing, braither,” Benedict said with a sigh.

“Why are ye so against this alliance?” Audor asked firmly.

They were now making their way down the wide stone staircase, and at the bottom, Benedict came to a stop and looked his brother in the eye. “Fer a start, ye’ve never met this lass. God only kens if yer even going tae like her, never mind, having tae spend the rest o’ yer life with her. Second, ye’re only thirty. There’s still time fer ye tae actually find someone ye might fall in love with. And third, once ye’re married, I’m nae going tae have ye at me side when we’re at the taverns and looking fer lasses.” Benedict grinned.

Audor smiled, shook his head, and then continued walking. “I understand yer concerns, Benedict. And I appreciate ye looking out fer me. But this is a good deal fer our clan. Besides, Laird Sinclair is a fine laird. He needs our help, and I intend tae give it.”

“Ye can always get a mistress if things dinnae work out,” Killian offered.

“Nay!” Audor and Benedict barked at the same time. They both glared at Killian, who seemed to shrink under the visual attack.

“All right,” he said weakly, raising his hands in surrender. “It was only an idea.”

“Ye should ken me braither better than that, Killian,” Benedict growled.

“I dae,” Killian countered. “I just thought it was something tae consider.”

“Ye’re a fool tae think he would even consider it.”

“Clearly,” Killian said a little sarcastically.

They were now out in the courtyard and making their way to the gates. The huge wooden barriers stood open, guards standing alert as they watched the approaching horses and carriages. There were a great deal of them, but Laird Sinclair led the convoy on his horse

“He looks old,” Audor said quietly.

Benedict caught sight of Laird Sinclair. He had only met the man once, and it had been some years ago, but Audor was right. The man looked like he had aged twenty years. He supposed the death of a beloved wife would do that to a man.

“I’m sorry,” Killian murmured. He was stood at Benedicts left, while Audor remained at his right. By the low tone, Killian clearly did not want Audor to hear him.

Benedict turned and spoke to Killian in equally low tones. “Ye should ken better, cousin. Audor is a loyal man. He values integrity nearly more than any other quality.”

Killian looked subdued. “I ken. I just wasnae thinking.”

Benedict placed an arm on his shoulder. “Listen. Dinnae worry yersel’ about it. Audor willnae hold it against ye.”

“Well,” Audor said. “It looks like I made a good deal after all.”

Benedict and Killian both looked up, for following on behind Laird Sinclair, was a horse and trap with two lasses sitting upon it.

Benedict’s jaw fell open at the sight of them. In fact, he could hardly believe what he was seeing. Could this be? There before his very eyes, was the lass he had kissed in the library. The lass he had been searching for ever since. The lass he had not been able to get out of his mind. She sat next to an equally pretty lass. The only trouble was, he didn’t know which sister was which.

Had he kissed the sister of his brother’s betrothed, or had he actually kissed Lady Evelyn Sinclair, the lass his brother was about to marry?

 

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Prologue

Torridon Inn, 1765

It was a habit they couldn’t easily shake, even when there seemed to be no danger. Aaden and Gilchrist sat at the far end of the common area of the inn, their backs against the wall and nothing else between them and the rest of the patrons, like they always did in such establishments. One could never know where an enemy might lurk, though an inn in a small town was hardly the place to attract any serious threats.

The room smelled of ale and wine, the wooden tables sticky with spilled residue that the serving wenches’ tattered rags could never clean entirely. The storm outside, the one which had forced them to pause their trip back home to Castle McDowell, still raged. The sound of the raindrops on the roof of the inn were so thunderous that not even the lively conversation inside was enough to fully drown it out. Although the room didn’t seem so crowded to Aaden at first glance, every table seemed to be occupied, some of them only by lonely travelers and others by groups of people.

“Here’s tae a successful job,” Gilchrist said, raising his cup of wine in a toast. “We willnae want fer naething now that we have reached this agreement.”

“We willnae want fer food, at least,” Aaden pointed out. The Bairds, with their fertile lands, had been perhaps the most important allies for Clan MacDowell to secure and now that Gilchrist had managed to make this deal with them—food in exchange for manpower and security—there would be no concerns about their resources throughout the winter. “Ye did well. The role o’ the laird suits ye.”

Laughing, Gilchrist sipped his wine slowly, savoring it as though it was one of the bottles he imported from France and not what it truly was, which was closer to vinegar.

“I must still adjust,” Gilchrist said. “An’ there is still much tae dae. This may be the most important deal we have made so far, but it willnae be the only one.”

Despite what his friend claimed, Arden couldn’t imagine a better laird for the McDowell Clan. Ever since marrying Kyven McDowell, the daughter of the clan’s previous laird, Gilchrist had spent most of his waking hours working towards the betterment of their lands and their people, putting everyone else before himself.

It showed a little in the weariness in his eyes, the lids weighed down by several sleepless nights. Aaden hoped that now, at least, with the clan’s food for the winter secured, he could rest for a while and focus on his new family.

“Ye must adjust soon,” Aaden said, “‘afore the bairn comes, for there will be less time after.”

“Och aye,” said Gilchrist, and the mere mention of his unborn child brought a new warmth to his face, a brightness that eclipsed his exhaustion. “There are still a few months left, but I wish it were sooner. I wish tae meet me son.”

“Or daughter,” Aaden reminded him.

“Or daughter,” Gilchrist agreed with a smile. “An’ besides, it’s already getting tiring fer Kyven. I’m sure she is impatient tae give birth.”

“She is gettin’ big, isnae she?”

“Dinnae tell her that,” warned Gilchrist, with the kind of serious tone he usually reserved for battle plans. “She is already angry she cannae see her feet an’ she will only continue tae grow. One wrong word an’ she’ll cut off yer head hersel’.”

Aaden laughed at the warning, imagining Kyven, pregnant as she was, trying to chase him around the castle. She could rope someone else into doing it, though; Aaden had no doubts about that.

“I’ll keep that in mind,” he said. “Though I’m sure if yer wife heard ye say that about her, she’d have yer head.”

“She’d be provin’ me point, then,” said Gilchrist. “An’ she wouldnae harm me. She loves me. Ye would understand if ye found a good lass fer yersel tae wed.”

This again, Aaden thought. Though he had always been adamant that he would never marry, it didn’t stop people from trying to change his mind. Gilchrist had been lecturing him on all the joys of marriage ever since he had married Kyven, and he wouldn’t take no for an answer. At most, he stopped bringing it up for a while, only to mention it again when Aaden had been lulled into a false sense of security, thinking he was safe from another such talk.

“Ye ken what I think about that,” Aaden said. “I like me freedom too much.”

That seemed to be the wrong thing to say. Gilchrist’s features arranged themselves in that serious look he got whenever there was something urgent to discuss, brows furrowing together and lips pursing into a thin line.

“Marryin’ Kyven didnae make me a prisoner,” he said. “As marryin’ a lass willnae make ye a prisoner. It gave me the biggest joys o’ me life. What will ye dae, Aaden? Will ye stay alone yer whole life?”

“I’m nae alone,” Aaden pointed out. He had Gilchrist. He had other friends. He could easily manage without a wife.

“Ye ken what I mean,” Gilchrist insisted. “Ye need someone. Ye cannae keep everyone away.”

Aaden’s jaw tightened at Gilchrist’s words. His friend had always known Aaden liked women, but for a while he had thought it was a way for him to find some comfort after his father’s death, a way to drown his sorrows. Now that Aaden hadn’t changed at all, though, Gilchrist had begun to pester him once more.

Aaden didn’t want to talk about his father or the reasons behind his reluctance to marry. He had made peace with both those things. Losing his father in that ambush had been one of the most painful moments of his life, but there was no bringing him back. A wife couldn’t fill the void he had left behind. All Aaden could do was keep his memory alive and move on as best he could.

Still, he could understand why Gilchrist was so insistent. He worried, just as Aaden worried about him, no matter how well he was doing. It was in their nature to worry about each other.

“It’s alright,” he assured him. “I write me maither often, so I still have family. An’ I have ye.”

It was only part of the truth, but it would have to be enough for Gilchrist, as it was all Aaden was willing to share.

“With yer maither?” Gilchrist asked, surprised. “Are ye gettin’ tae ken her better, then? Will ye go an’ see her?”

“I cannae see her,” Aaden said.

“Surely, ye can. Where is she now?”

Aaden sighed, delaying his response by taking a large sip of wine. In the end, he looked at Gilchrist in the eye and said, “She is a courtesan. Where dae ye think she is?”

It wasn’t true, but it was the story everyone had been told. His father had never revealed his mother’s true identity to anyone but Aaden himself, and Aaden didn’t intend to expose her like this, not even to his friend.

Aaden had seen what love did to people. He had seen how his father had wilted before everyone’s eyes, loving the woman he could never have. What he knew of his mother told him that she, too, had never stopped grieving their lost love, spending her years yearning after his father.

It wasn’t that Aaden didn’t believe in love. He had seen it first-hand. Love was real and it was painful, and he was never going to go down that path of self-destruction. He would rather spend his life with a different woman every night, never once risking falling in love.

What he had said seemed to be enough to silence Gilchrist on the matter, at least temporarily. He gave Aaden a sympathetic look and a pat on the shoulder before he drained his cup and stood.

“We should sleep,” he said. “We must wake early on the morrow an’ head back.”

“Aye,” said Aaden. “But I think I’ll stay a while longer.”

His gaze scanned the room, looking for any women he could bring to his room before the night was over. Gilchrist didn’t need to ask why. He only gave him a roll of his eyes, though his smile was fond.

“Alright,” he said. “Good luck with yer hunt. I’m very glad I dinnae have tae dae this anymore.”

With that, he was gone, heading up the stairs to the room he had secured for the night, as Aaden returned to his search. He could speak to one of the serving wenches, he thought. They were both young and pretty, and they always fell for his charms.

But then again, who didn’t?

He let his gaze roam around the room for a while longer and that was when he spotted her: a young woman with long hair as dark as the night and a pair of blue eyes that pierced him like an arrow when they met his own for a brief second. She was sitting with another young woman, the two of them talking animatedly and paying him no mind, but Aaden wasn’t going to be discouraged by something as insignificant, not when that woman was the most beautiful creature he had laid his eyes on.

He could wait and so he did, sipping the rest of his wine slowly as he watched them, waiting patiently for the right moment. That moment came when the woman’s friend stood and left the room, but she remained, idly sipping her drink as she looked around her.

Taking his chance, Aaden stood and walked over to her table, sliding into the seat her friend had only just vacated.

“Good evenin’,” he said, his smile so bright it could outshine any candle in the room. “What is such a bonnie lass doin’ here alone? It’s very cold, after all, an’ they say it’s easier tae warm up when ye have another next tae ye.”

It was a bit bold and a bit silly, but every time Aaden used that line, he usually received at least a chuckle in return. He was good looking enough for his conquests to need little coaxing, finding him charming in his audacity.

This woman didn’t seem to, though. The glare she gave him sent a chill down his spine. It was colder than the rain outside the inn, as if she would have liked nothing more than to kill him where he sat.

“I was enjoyin’ me own company until ye disturbed me,” she said, her melodious voice carrying so much irritation that the contrast was dizzying. It was fine with him, though. Aaden liked a challenge, and he wasn’t going to back down that easily. In the end, the reward of bedding her would be worth it.

“May I offer ye a drink, then, as an apology?” he said, already raising his hand to call for the serving wench when the woman stopped him.

“Thank ye, but nay. Ye see, I have this rare ailment. I cannae accept drinks from strangers without bein’ nauseated an’ vomitin’ all over them.”

Charmin’ lass.

Pursing his lips in distaste, Aaden leaned a little closer over the table to rest his head on his hand. “Is that truly a way tae get a man’s attention?”

“Aye, me biggest goal in life is tae get a handsome man’s attention,” the woman said with a roll of her eyes. She all but slammed her hands on the table and stood, pushing back her chair with a scraping sound that made Aaden recoil. “An’ it obviously worked if ye’re here, tryin’ tae steal me affections.”

The woman walked off, but before she could get too far, Aaden followed her. Perhaps he should simply accept defeat, but it wasn’t often that a woman rejected him. In fact, he couldn’t remember a time when it had happened. Some of them were difficult, but by the end of the night, they always ended up in his bed.

“Are we headin’ tae me chambers or yers?” he asked, deciding that boldness was the way to go with this woman. She, too, was bold, after all, having no regard for what was polite.

The woman came to an abrupt halt and turned around to look at him, giving him a smile that was all teeth. “Ye should certainly wait fer me in yer chambers,” she said, and then turned around just as swiftly, once more heading for the door.

Aaden couldn’t let it go just yet, though. It intrigued him, how feisty she was, how quick to respond, the insults tumbling one after the other out of her lips. Aaden had never met such a spirited woman before and something stirred inside him, a kind of insistent, irresistible desire for more.

He caught up with her just past the door, grabbing her arm to stop her and pull her close, their bodies flush together. Leaning even closer, lips brushing over the shell of her ear, he whispered to her.

“I can give ye pleasure like ye’ve never had ‘afore,” he said. “I can take ye tae places ye’ve never reached.”

The woman turned her head so that their lips were almost brushing. Just when Aaden thought he finally had her in his grasp, she said, “The only place ye can take me is hell, I’m sure.”

Aaden couldn’t help but laugh at that, even if it was at his own expense. As the woman made to leave once more, he let his hand glide down her arm and then laced their fingers together, stopping her once again.

Suddenly, she spun around, the glare returning in her eyes. “Dae ye even ken me name?”

For a moment, Aaden wracked his brain, trying to remember if she had told him. In the end, he only shrugged. “Ye can tell me while ye moan mine.”

In a flash, the woman had him pinned against the wall, a small, sharp blade pressed to his neck. The speed and strength behind the movement caught Aaden by surprise enough for him to get trapped by this woman who was much smaller than him, his heart racing behind his ribs, the breath caught in his throat. Under the moonlight, her features were just as sharp—a small, straight nose, prominent cheekbones, and a high, regal forehead, all of them blending together to leave an impression of danger.

Aaden would be lying if he said he wasn’t more intrigued than ever.

“Perhaps yer depraved words work fer other lasses, but I’m nae them,” the woman hissed, lips curling back to bare her teeth. “I would never share yer bed, even if ye were the last man in the Highlands.”

In the distance, Aaden heard a voice, something that the woman heard as well. Her head snapped to the side, fingers tightening around the handle of her blade.

“Lilith!”

Over the sound of the rain and the thunder, Aaden couldn’t hear what the voice was calling, but it seemed to have an immediate effect on the woman. Just as quickly as she had attacked him, she pulled back and was gone, her quick footsteps disappearing down the street. Aaden didn’t try to pursue her this time. Instead, he let his head fall back with a sigh, fingers tracing the skin where she had pressed her blade.

Perhaps he hadn’t heard her name, but he would never forget that face—the face of the first woman to ever reject him.

Chapter One

MacEwan Castle. One year later.

The castle was just as Aaden remembered it, though it had been very long since he had last stepped foot on MacEwan land. It towered over the hill, stretching up to a grey sky, a colossal structure of stone that was as majestic as it was intimidating. Like all castles, it did not only speak of wealth; it also spoke of power.

When he reached the castle gates, Aaden handed the paper he had been clutching in his hand all the way there to one of the guards, who proceeded to have the door opened for him. Riding inside, the few memories Aaden had of the place rushed back to him. There was that oak he had climbed as a child, falling from the lowest branches and scraping his knees. There were the stables where he had first learned to care for his horse, and the kitchens where the maids would give him apples and sweets in secret.

He wondered how many of those maids still worked there. He wondered if any of them would remember him now that he was grown, now that his face was covered by a short beard and he would no longer be looking up at them with wide, mischievous eyes.

Despite everything, Aaden had missed the place. He only wished he could have returned under different circumstances.

The invitation he had handed to the guard outside had come as a surprise. He never expected to return to this place, given that his uncle didn’t want to even look at him. He knew there was only one reason why he would ever call Aaden there; it meant he wanted something from him and whatever that was, it couldn’t possibly be good.

After jumping off his horse and passing the reins to the stable boy, another servant came to fetch him. Aaden followed the young man inside and soon found that even all those years later, he didn’t need a guide. He remembered where everything was, the details slowly coming back to him.

Still, he doubted his uncle would allow him to roam freely around the castle. If anything, Aaden was surprised that no guard was following him, but then again, there was no real danger for Ruadh. His uncle was the laird of the clan and as long as Aaden was in there alone, he was powerless, even with all the weapons he carried around his waist.

Weapons, he noted, that no one had taken from him.

They came to a halt in front of a large door that Aaden identified as leading to Ruadh’s study. The servant announced him, and Aaden walked in to see his uncle there, sitting behind his grand desk, surrounded by all his riches: colorful tapestries, thick rugs, heavy, dark furniture that had a presence even more imposing than the man’s own.

Naturally, Ruadh had gotten older since Aaden had last seen him, but the change was startling to Aaden. He must have been in his early sixties, his face lined by the passage of time, his stature shorter than Aaden remembered—though that was perhaps because Aaden had been a child last time they had been in the same room. Even so, his eyes were just as blue and the black of his hair persisted even at his age, the only traces of grey appearing at his temples.

There was no warmth in his greeting when he acknowledged Aaden.

“Sit,” Ruadh said, gesturing towards the chair by his desk, but Aaden preferred to stand. When he didn’t obey, Ruadh simply shrugged. “As ye wish.”

“Why did ye call me here?” Aaden asked. He had no desire to pretend there was any love lost between them. Ruadh hated him and no matter what Aaden said, no matter how politely he behaved, the man would never change his mind. “Why now, after all these years in exile?”

For a few moments, Ruadh was silent, simply observing Aaden as if seeing him for the first time.

“The last time I saw ye, ye were only a bairn,” he said instead of answering the question. “It truly has been a long time.”

“The last time I saw ye, ye were a coward who sent me an’ me faither tae exile,” said Aaden, teeth gritting together.

There was nothing else Ruadh could do to him and so Aaden didn’t feel a need to hold back his venom. The man deserved much more than that, but Aaden would have to be satisfied with the little he could get now that he had finally confronted the man after so many years.

His scathing words earned him a glare, but nothing more than that. Ruadh was calculating, chilling in his cruelty. He would not lose his temper because of a mere comment, but he would make sure to retaliate sooner or later.

“Ye ken very well why I had tae send ye tae exile,” he said.”

“There were other ways,” Aaden insisted. “Ye didnae have tae send me faither away from his home. Ye didnae have tae send me away from me maither.”

“What would ye have me dae? Allow her bastard son tae live under the same roof as me own son?” Ruadh asked. There was an edge to his voice now, his cruelty seeping through the cracks. He stood too, the two of them glaring at each other over the desk. “Ye should be glad I didnae kill ye an’ me traitor o’ a braither.”

“He was as good as dead an’ ye ken that,” Aaden said. “Ye ken he never recovered from what ye did tae him.

Ruadh’s eyes narrowed as he looked at Aaden. He circled his desk and came to stand in front of him, leaving nothing but a few scant inches between them. “Yer faither tried tae steal me wife from me. Yer faither was a traitor tae his own braither. An’ yer maither…, yer maither spread her legs fer him, did she nae? An’ here ye are.”

Aaden could have killed his uncle that very moment. Perhaps he should have swung at him least, punching him for speaking about his mother like that, but that would have only caused him more trouble. He was already in plenty of trouble as it was, since Ruadh had called him there.

“Where is she?” he asked instead. “I wish tae see her.”

“Dinnae forget this, Aaden,” Ruadh said as he headed back to his chair, sinking in its plush leather. “Janice is me wife an’ me son’s maither. She is naething but an aunt tae ye. Ye will dae well tae forget she ever birthed ye.”

“Ye could have let her marry me faither,” Aaden insisted. “Ye could have let them be happy. Ye kent they loved each other but ye still married her.”

“I willnae entertain this any longer,” Ruadh said, effectively putting an end to the conversation. Aaden knew there was nothing to say to provoke him into discussing it further.

“Fine,” Aaden spat. “Then perhaps ye wish tae tell me why ye invited me here. Surely, it wasnae so ye could see me.”

That drew a laugh out of Ruadh, a short, humorless sound. “It wasnae an invitation. It was an order. With me brother gone, ye must repay his debt.”

“There is nae debt tae repay,” Aaden said. “Any debt he owed ye, he paid by spendin’ all his life in grief.”

Another laugh, this even colder than the last. “Ye’re as insolent as ever, I see. But that’s alright. I will teach ye what it means tae have honor. Listen carefully. Ye are tae wed Lilith Stewart, the first-born daughter o’ Laird Stewart. Evander wishes tae marry his youngest, but her faither willnae wed her if Lilith isnae wed first.”

Aaden could hardly believe his ears. That was why Ruadh had called him there? What could have possibly possessed him and make him think he would do such a thing for him.

“Why should I care if yer son wishes tae marry this lass?” he asked. “An’ why dae ye need me? I’m sure the first-born o’ Laird Stewart will have many suitors.”

“Och aye,” Ruadh said. “They both dae. The young one, Freya, she wishes tae wed Evander. But Lilith doesnae want any o’ her suitors. She is said tae be… difficult.”

Aaden couldn’t wrap his head around any of this. The most he could do was stand there in disbelief, mouth hanging slightly open as he tried to figure out what else Ruadh had planned for him. Surely, a marriage wasn’t the only thing he had in mind, especially to the first-born daughter of a laird.

“Why doesnae Evander wed Lilith?” he asked. “Surely, that is the wisest option fer him. Why would ye want me tae be the laird o’ the Stewart Clan when ye could make him?”

“As I said, Lilith is difficult,” Ruadh repeated. “Evander wants a softer lass. An’ if ye think ye will have any real power, I’d suggest ye reconsider it. Perhaps ye would become the laird once her faither dies, but ye will dae as I say.”

That, of course, was only natural, Aaden thought. Ruadh would never relinquish the power he could have, even if he didn’t marry his own son to the heir. He was a cunning man. He would do anything to find a way to exert control over another clan, so Aaden was hardly surprised he had planned something like this. “An’ how will ye enforce that? Why should I follow yer orders?”

For a moment, Ruadh hesitated. Then, he drew a deep breath and raised a hand to comb it through his hair. “Because I have yer maither,” he said. “An’ if ye dinnae obey me, I will kill her.”

He has her imprisoned.

“Where is me maither?” Aaden said, taking a few steps towards the desk before going still once more. “Where are ye keepin’ her?”

“In a place only I ken,” Ruadh said calmly. “An’ ye will never find her.”

Rage coursed through Aaden’s veins, his face turning an ugly shade of red. He was trembling from head to toe, fists clenched tightly by his sides as he glared at Ruadh, the anger having no place to go. What could he do? He couldn’t kill the man and get out of there alive. He even doubted he could get as far as killing him. Even though there had been no guards outside his door when Aaden had first walked in, that didn’t mean there were no guards outside now, waiting for their laird to give the word. His uncle was no fool. He knew Aaden would be enraged by this and he had certainly made sure to have protection nearby.

“Why are ye doin’ this?” Aaden asked, his voice barely a whisper. “What will ye gain from this?”

“Gold, o’ course,” Ruadh said. “I will receive the dowry fer both weddings. An’ then, with time, power. Imagine it, me son an’ me nephew married tae the two Stewart lasses. It’s an alliance that will never break. An’ dinnae act as though ye will receive naething out o’ this. Ye will be a laird one day. In name only, perhaps, but ye’ll still live a nice, comfortable life. An’ ye’ll have a bonnie wife. They say Lilith Stewart is a very bonnie lass. She’s certainly more than a bastard like ye deserves, so ye should be grateful I am givin’ her tae ye.”

Before Aaden could say anything else, Evander entered the room. Though it had been years since they had last seen each other, Aaden recognized him immediately, and by the way the other paused by the door, looking at him with clear surprise etched on his face, he recognized him, too.

They looked alike, the two of them. They both shared their mother’s golden hair, the bow of her lips, the shape of her eyes. They even shared some resemblance through their fathers, inheriting their common feature: a strong, straight nose.

“Cousin,” Evander said, lips stretching into an easy smile. “When did ye come tae visit?”

Cousin.

Naturally, Read hadn’t told Evander about their true relation. Evander still thought they were only cousins, not half-brothers, and as much as Aaden wanted him to know the truth, he would keep Ruadh’s secret for the sake of their mother.

“Just now,” Ruadh said before Aaden could respond. “I was tellin’ him about Lilith an’ Freya. Aaden has agreed tae wed Lilith.”

Aaden didn’t remember ever making such a promise, but what other choice did he have? Ruadh had his mother. He could kill her at any moment and then Aaden would have lost the only real family he had left. He couldn’t let him touch her. He couldn’t let him take her life, too, after everything else he had taken from her.

“I saw Freya a few months ago when I went tae a clan meetin’ at Stewart Castle,” Evander said, coming to stand next to Aaden. “I already ken she wants me. She tried everythin’ in her power tae get me attention an’… well, she did. I would have kissed her, too, had it nae been fer her meddlin’ sister. She kept trailin’ after Freya, remindin’ her tae be proper. But that’s alright. I have been writin’ tae her ever since an’ I’ve done me best tae make her fall fer me.”

“I’m sure it wasnae difficult fer ye,” said Ruadh. “These lasses are so easily swayed by sweet words.”

“They truly are,” Evander said, and both of them laughed, the sound filling the large room. They had a similar laugh, deep and booming, like a solid thing. “All I had tae dae was promise her I would love her forever an’ she was ready tae believe anythin’ I told her.”

Aaden looked at the two of them with disgust as he took a few steps back, putting some space between him and his brother. He didn’t want to be there. Had it not been for his mother, he would have never even come.

“Lilith is very bonnie, ye ken,” Evander said, echoing his father’s prior words. “But ye should be careful. They call her the Snow Lass because she’s so frigid. Nae one has managed tae get tae that cold heart o’ hers.”

“Ye will both visit Stewart Castle soon,” Ruadh said, interrupting his son. “Laird Stewart is acceptin’ the suitors, so Aaden, ye can go an’ charm Lilith while Evander speaks with the laird about Freya’s hand. An’ ye are nae tae fail. It will be most beneficial tae all o’ us if Lilith chooses ye.”

Aaden’s first instinct was to refuse, but he had no choice. There was no point in arguing now, not when both he and Ruadh knew he would do as he was told. His uncle had him under his control now. There was nothing Aaden could do as long as he kept threatening his mother.

Looking between the two men, Aaden couldn’t help but wonder how everything had come to this. He, who never wanted to marry, was now being forced into this marriage. The only good thing about it all was that there would be no love involved. That gave him some peace of mind, at least.

Besides, he was Aaden MacEwan, the womanizer. How difficult could it be to seduce this girl?

 

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Chapter One

Clan Mackintosh
Highlands, May 1698

“Catreena pushed her head through the gap between the doors, listening intently. Her head was cocked to the side and her blonde hair gathered behind her ears so she could hear clearly.

The guards were marching up and down the battlements of the castle walls, clearly just as determined to keep everyone inside as they were to keep intruders out.

“Ye give yer orders carefully, eh, Alec?” Catreena muttered under her breath, as if she could indeed speak to her older brother, the Laird of the Macintoshes, though he was currently miles away, visiting family in the clan of his wife Kira. Clearly, he had given careful instructions when he left to make sure she was guarded in this castle, more prisoner than free.

Something in the back of Catreena’s mind told her Alec had left such instructions only to keep her safe, but her frustration and boredom made this thought vanish as if it had been magicked from her mind. With Alec away, and Bran, her second brother, also gone with his wife Ilyssa, that left only Dunn, her twin brother, and Evander, her other brother, for company. They were both so caught up in their own business those days, they hardly noticed her when she wished to talk or find entertainment. Fortunately for her, they did not seem to notice much either when she tried to sneak out of the castle.

Catreena waited with bated breath, feeling the cool night breeze on her cheeks as the guards’ footsteps faded away, then she stepped out onto the battlement walls. Lit by the stars above, the castle looked colder than it did in daylight, the stone whiter and much more ghoulish. She shivered as she looked around the bare wall, seeing the spots where some of the guards had left their weapons, ready to snatch up. The sight of those weapons reminded her of the battles that had ensued in these walls and in others.

We’re nae safe. That’s what Alec keeps telling me.

She backed away from the weapons as quickly as she could, going in the opposite direction to the guards. She reached for the nearest watch tower and scrambled down the spiral staircase nestled deep within the grey walls, running her fingers along the stones to ensure she did not lose her balance and fall.

It was always the same, whenever she thought of the battle and bloodshed that happened between the clans of Scotland. It made her fear the future, and fear what men were capable of doing to one another. Her brother’s parting words before he left with Kira on his travels sent a shiver up her spine.

“Remember, Catreena, the son of Laird Gilroy Grant wants revenge on us all after his faither’s death. Ye must stay inside the castle.”

Yet she was tired of staying indoors, and she thought it unlikely that at this time of night, Cillian Grant would steal inside Clan Mackintosh lands to take revenge on her family when so few of them were gathered there.

It’s time for an adventure.

She turned the key in the lock of the door and pushed it open, stepping out beyond the watch tower into the outer grounds. She inhaled deeply, feeling the chilly spring air fill her lungs.

“Freedom,” she whispered to herself. “Aye, it’s wonderful tae breathe easily.” She giggled at what she was doing, the mischief of it all, and glanced back toward the door of the tower, being careful to close it behind her. No guard had noticed her, and before they patrolled back to that tower, she shot off at a run.

With the skirt of her paisley gown tucked into one hand, she sprinted as fast as she could between the trees, running on her toes to avoid making too much noise. The scent of the fresh pine needles filled her nose, as did the wild garlic, stronger and more pungent, the fragrance wafting up from where she kicked the plants as she ran. More than once, she nearly tripped on the roots of trees in the darkness, but she did not care. She simply reached out to nearby trees, steadying her balance before running again.

In the distance, something glistened in the dark. The moon, strong, almost full like a vast candle, was shining on the surface of the loch. She hurried toward it, peering between the branches of the Douglas firs and larches, to glimpse the loch bank.

“Och, it’s beautiful,” she whispered, coming to a halt at last on the riverbank. She panted, catching her breath as her gaze took in the sight of the shimmering loch and the distant mountains. Giggling with delight at her escape in the darkness, she wandered along the loch bank, searching for what she gone there for.

Sophia had said it would be here. Aye, on the loch bank.

She wafted her hands through the long reeds at the edge of the loch, searching by moonlight. For the past few years, Catreena had watched the healer, Sophia’s, to learn all she could from her. Practically an apprentice, Catreena was learning how herbs could heal a man. It was a fascinating subject, a world of tonics and potions that sometimes seemed more magic than science at all. Her twin, Dunn, seemed to be the only one out of her brothers who understood her fascination for such a world, though he too had issued caution about not learning too much.

“Remember ye are sister tae a laird now, Catreena. A healer’s life isnae the one fer ye.”

She had asked what he meant, what he expected the path of her life to be, but he had chosen not to answer.

“Ah, there ye are,” she whispered, coming to a halt on the loch bank. A small and hairy plant stretched up before her. Short and stubby, it was very difficult to find at the side of the reeds, encapsulated in muddy marsh land. The thing that made it most identifiable were the hundreds of tiny white flowers speckled across the stem. The moonlight glinted off the petals, revealing what it was.

Gypsywort.

Sophia had told her what properties it could have for those who struggled to sleep and suffered errant beatings of their heart at night.

She reached forward, about to pluck the plant from the ground, when she felt a chill run up her spine. She froze, her fingers still outstretched toward the plant that swayed in a breeze that rippled around the loch.

The evening may have been cold, but the chill which had run up Catreena’s spine had little to do with that. She had the unmistakable feeling she was being watched.

She stood abruptly tall, stiffening her spine and jerking her head around. Her eyes traced the side of the loch, the undisturbed water, smooth as glass, and the dark mass of trees nearby. She staggered a little as she backed up into the marshy earth, her eyes on those trees. If someone was indeed watching her from that darkness, she had no way of knowing. They would be too hidden.

With one hand, she scrambled to retrieve the dirk she carried in her belt. It never left her side now, and she kept it there at Alec’s insistence, though she had to admit it was now a wise decision. Keeping the dirk close to her side, she clasped her fingers tightly around the hilt, ready to attack if needed.

There!

Catreena thought she saw something move in the trees. She stepped forward, away from the marshy ground and onto the firmer loch bank. She peered, straining her eyes against the darkness to see what was there, then suddenly, something with great flapping wings shot out of the branches. Inhaling sharply, she scarcely managed to stop herself from yelping, as the creature shot past her and into the sky.

She staggered, spinning around as she saw the barn owl, spectral in its white plumage, darting across the river surface, then up toward the mountains.

Realizing how much she had been panicked over nothing more than an owl, she chuckled under her breath, shaking her head. She placed the dirk back in the small scabbard that hung from a leather belt at her hip, ready to return to the gypsywort herb, just as a hand snaked across her waist –

“Nay!” Catreena screamed and whirled around, though she wasn’t fast enough.

She couldn’t reach her dirk as the hand tightened, now clasping her tightly across the back. The tall figure bent his head down toward her, the long dark hair a mass that cloaked the cover of the moonlight for a moment.

Fear erupted in her chest, her heart pounding fast as she pushed into his abdomen, trying to escape him.

“Let go of me!”

“Is that anyway tae greet an old friend, little Catreena?”

She froze, knowing that nickname without even being able to see his face in the darkness. He cocked his head to the side and his lips practically brushed her ear. An unwelcome shiver of delight passed up her spine.

“Are ye mad tae come out here alone in the middle of the night?” he hissed.

The anger was plain, and only mirrored by the anger she felt within her own gut at liking how close his lips were to her ear. Catreena thrust harsher into his stomach and this time managed to wrench herself from his grasp. She backed away into the reeds, stumbling, scarcely keeping her balance, as her eyes settled on his face.

The moonlight now shone on those features she knew very well indeed.

The tanned skin looked very dark in this light, and the tattoos she that covered his body were somewhat difficult to identify, but what was clear was his face. The strong jawline, the pronounced cheekbones, and the gray eyes. In the white light surrounding them, those eyes shone with intensity.

Not once did he blink as he slowly folded his arms, glowering at her, with his tall figure towering over her, despite the distance she had managed to put between them.

“Why did ye dae that?” she raged at him, waving her arms madly. “Ye frightened me half tae death.”

“Imagine how frightened ye would have been had I been an attacker and nae yer friend.”

“Some friend,” she scoffed, and the two of them exchanged an awkward look.

We both ken we arenae friends.

They were more like brother and sister than anything else, though Tad was like the brother she hated. He was her brothers’ dearest friend, and his sister – her best friend – had recently married Bran, so they were now technically extended family. She had known Tad her whole life, watched him as he grew from a boy into a philandering man. Much older than her, a laird with a very particular reputation, Tad carried darkness and seduction with him, wherever he went.

“Ye didnae need tae frighten me,” she tried to go on the offensive again, doing her best to walk out of the marshy reeds and up the bank, far away from him, yet her feet had become stuck in the bog and one foot was refusing to move.

“Ye are telling me off?” he exclaimed, his voice so sharp that her gut squirmed. “Cat, look where ye are!” he hissed loudly.

“I currently seem tae be in a bog,” she muttered to herself, trying to free her foot again, but finding it impossible.

“Bloody hell. What if I was an attacker, eh?” He had clearly seen her predicament and marched toward her.

“Dinnae touch me,” she ordered, holding up her hands. She didn’t want him to again, fearing that she’d feel another one of those excited trembles she despised.

Tad was too seductive for his own good and it didn’t help that she had already made a decision long ago to hate him.

“Come here,” he said, ignoring her order and taking hold of her hand, trying to pull her out. It did nothing though, her foot stayed fast. “Ye are bloody lucky,” he went again, cursing loudly. When he couldn’t free her foot, he stepped closer toward her.

“What are ye doing!?” she hissed in panic.

“What dae ye think?” he matched her tone, his handsome face coming startlingly closer to hers. He wrapped a hand smoothly around her waist and lifted her with one clean jerk out of the bog. Her body fell against his as he walked backward out of the marsh, carrying her. Her hands found his chest, trying to push him away. “Imagine if someone else had found ye. What would ye have done then if he had tried tae take ye here and now in this darkness? Dae ye think a guard could have heard ye scream fer help? Dae ye think ye could fight him off?”

Catreena turned as cold as ice in his arms.

I wish he wouldnae talk about coupling so much.

She had a reputation for her wit and her arguments, but whenever conversation turned to such matters, she preferred to stay silent. For her, intimacy was sacred. It should only be shared between two people who were very much in love. She knew that Tad did not agree though. He saw sex as little more than sport.

“How would ye have fought off a man, eh?” Tad asked, coming to a stop, though he still didn’t put her down. He just held her, his arms around her waist, their bodies pressed flat together. “Assuming ye wanted tae fight him off, of course?” It was a leading question, the glimmer of mischief in those gray eyes, despite the anger which had made his jawline taut.

Her mind was racing. When had Tad arrived at the castle? He must have come to call on her brothers, but then what had induced him to come looking for her out here? Was it chance?

When he still didn’t release her but glared at her in anger, akin to the fury her brothers would feel, her own rage snapped.

“Ye bast –”

“Always so affectionate, little Cat,” he whispered, smirking.

She kicked out at him and he dropped her, allowing her to push away from him across the riverbank.

“I was perfectly safe,” she insisted, scrambling to pull her dirk out to show him. “See. I had this.”

“Oh, aye,” he said loudly with full sarcasm, waving an errant hand toward her. “Much good that was going tae dae ye, eh? Dae ye think a dirk would stop a strong man who wanted tae force himself on ye?”

“I would have stopped him,” she insisted.

“Let’s test that, shall we?” He advanced toward her.

“Tad… Tad, what are ye doing!?” She turned and ran away from him, but she only reached the first tree before he caught her. In one swift movement, he took hold of her skirt and flung her around. She fell against the trunk of the fir tree, raising her dirk threateningly toward him, but he caught her forearm with his right hand.

She couldn’t move her arm and they fell still, staring at one another. She had a feeling he was using a small amount of energy to hold her wrist in place. Compared to his strong biceps, her arms were like twigs.

“See?” he pointed out, his eyebrows risen. “See how easy that was?”

He didn’t move but stayed close to her. The way her gut squirmed once again wasn’t helping. It didn’t help either that Tad had that look in his eyes – it was an expression she could not understand and one she had seen on him a lot recently when he looked at her.

“Ye-ye made yer point,” she managed to stammer.

Abruptly, he released her and stepped back. She returned her dirk to her belt, staring at him, his back now toward her as he breathed heavily and stepped toward the loch.

“I’ll take ye back tae the castle.”

“I’m nae going yet.” She marched toward him, ready to argue further, yet to her surprise, he said nothing. He stayed completely silent. “Tad? Did ye hear me?”

He lifted a hand between them, the palm outward, as if pleading for silence.

“What is it?”

“Shush,” he hissed so quietly, she almost didn’t hear him.

He had cocked his head to the side, his eyes scanning the trees behind them.

I ken that look. I have seen it before on him as well.

She had seen it when he went hunting with her brothers in the woods. He turned completely to face the trees, then reached for her.

“What are ye doing?”

“What dae ye nae understand about holding that sharp tongue of yers, Cat?” he hissed angrily.

“Who said I have tae obey yer order?”

“Quiet!”

“Ah!” she yelped as a whistle of a bolt suddenly struck through the air.

Tad pushed her down behind him. She practically fell to her knees, his hand on her shoulder as he acted as her shield, facing down the trees.

The whistle of the bolt was followed by an angry bellow.

“Get them,” someone roared from the trees.

Two hooded figures stepped out from behind the tree trunks, one already reloading his crossbow as the other drew out a sword from his belt.

“Dae me a favor and obey one order fer once in yer life, Cat,” Tad hissed. He grabbed her arm and drew her to her feet again, then turned his back to her and faced the men. “Leave this tae me.

Chapter Two

Tad rested his hands in his weapons belt, stepping in front of Catreena in the hope that he was blocking her completely as his gaze rested on their attackers.

Nae Cat. Ye will nae put a hand on her.

He was breathing heavily now, like a bull ready to charge, as he stared at the men. He knew this day would come. Grant soldiers had been seen often enough sneaking into the Mackintosh clan as of late, it would only have been so long before they got this close to the castle.

The man with the crossbow raised the weapon ready to fire, then he shifted it, clearly aiming for Catreena.

Tad reached back. In one swift movement, he grabbed her wrist and lunged to the side with her. They landed in the boggy reeds together, their booted feet struggling in the mud, as the bolt whistled passed them and landed in the water of the loch.

“Dimwit,” the man with the sword muttered to the other. “Leave it tae me.” He stepped forward, swishing his sword through the air. In Tad’s mind, he was a man who knew how to posture with a sword, but that didn’t necessarily mean he knew how to use one.

Tad reached for the dirk he carried in his own belt and raised it high, clipping the man’s shoulder so deeply that he staggered back, dropping the sword. A bellow of pain erupted, and as his friend went to check on him, Catreena took the opportunity to try and escape out the other side of the marshy bog, to the other part of the bank. Tad followed her, keeping his eyes on the men at all times.

The one with the crossbow raised his weapon again, bearing yet another arrow. This time, he fired too quickly for Tad to be able to do much about it.

He pulled on the back of Catreena’s skirt, managing to get her out of the way in time, but as he swung the two of them around, causing her to fall into his arms, the arrow caught the side of his arm.

He grunted, hissing in pain through his teeth as he felt the arrowhead tear his shirt and whip past his skin. There would be blood, he knew that, but it was not bad.

He thrust Catreena onto her feet again, only catching a glimpse of her expression in the moonlight, though it was enough to make him suddenly aware of the pounding of her heart.

Her blue eyes were wide with fear.

A fury took over him like nothing else he had ever experienced.

He reached into the back of his weapons belt, lifting out his own crossbow. It was smaller than his foe’s, more accurate, and much more deadly. With a bolt slipped into place within a second, he fired it at the two men. It struck his assailant in the shoulder, knocking him with such startling force, that he dropped his weapon and fell backwards.

“Time tae go,” Tad called to Catreena and grabbed her hand.

“Dae ye have tae hold me hand!?”

“Nae the time fer this!” he snapped back and shot off through the forest. He kept the crossbow in his other hand, ready to use it if needed, as they ran between the trees, darting over scrambling tree roots and great clumps of wild garlic. He could feel Catreena struggling to keep up with his pace, but he didn’t slow down. They needed to get as far away from there as possible, and as quickly as they could.

There could be others waiting for us.

He spied his horse through the branches, the reins tied to the tree where he had left it. When he’d arrived at the castle, he’d caught sight of Catreena running off and had turned his horse to follow her instead.

As they reached the horse, the animal snorted in greeting. Tad took hold of Catreena’s waist and practically tossed her into the saddle.

“Och!” she exclaimed, struggling to sit straight. “I can climb intae a saddle meself. I am nae completely incapable, Tad.”

“Ye say that now?” He scoffed as he snatched up the reins and stepped into the stirrup. With some difficulty, he managed to pull himself up in front of her. She was forced with the way he had tipped the saddle to sit flush against him, her front to his back. “Hold on tight. As if we were lovers.” His tone was a little playful through the anger, though it was only momentary as he looked back through the trees.

There’s someone there. One of the men have recovered and come after us.

“I’d rather grip ontae a wild wolf,” she hissed.

“A lover that acts like a wild wolf isnae bad thing, little Catreena.”

“What daes that mean – ah!” She yelped as he suddenly flicked the reins, and they darted off through the trees again.

Another bolt hit the earth beneath the horse’s hooves, but his steed was a hard one to spook. The stallion barely snorted as it rode on at great speed, sensing the danger and carrying them far away.

Fortunately, at the sudden speed, Catreena had indeed held tightly onto him. Tad just had to do his best not to let the monster that often stirred in his gut rise on this occasion.

It was how he always thought of it when he was aroused, as if some dragon was roaring in his lower gut, ready to rise and feed his lovemaking with fire. That dragon had started to rear its head recently around Catreena, though he knew he couldn’t let that happen.

There were too many obstacles in the way of him letting that dragon free. Catreena was the sister of his dearest friends in the world. There was an age gap between them, and there was also the small problem that she despised everything about him.

How inconvenient that she grew up tae be as spirited and beautiful as she is.

He flicked the reins again and concentrated on their journey. Within minutes, they were back near the castle. As they rode out toward the courtyard, two guards stepped forward, alarmed at their presence.

“We were attacked,” Tad shouted at them. They clearly recognized his voice at once. “Double the guard at every entrance. Consider it an order from yer own laird, I’m sure Alec would say as much.”

Tad was allowed to steer the horse into the courtyard before the guards slammed the gate shut behind him. The moment he slowed the pace of the horse, Catreena released him. She even staggered down from the saddle before the horse had fully stopped, nearly managing to make herself fall over.

Tad halted the horse then jumped down too, passing the reins into the hands of a stable boy who had run through the darkness to greet them.

“What happened out there?” Catreena asked, seeming to speak more to herself than to him at all. For a change, she held no argumentative tone. It was more like a curious fear, her voice very quiet indeed. “Who were they?”

“I expect they were Grant soldiers. They have been seen more and more in the Mackintosh lands. Me scouts saw them recently break yer borders. I came tae warn Dunn and Evander about it tonight.” He tried to take her arm to steer her into the castle, but she veered it out of his grasp.

“Why us?” she snapped, stepping back. “I ken Cillian Grant despises us. Bran married the woman he wanted, but ye were the one who killed his faither. Why come and attack us? Why now?”

“Why dae ye think?” he said, sighing with tiredness. “Ye, Dunn and Evander are easier targets with Bran and Alec away, nae tae mention the soldiers that will accompany them. Ye are nae as fortified as me own castle is. Now, come inside. Ye seem tae have had enough of journeying with me fer one night.”

She narrowed her eyes as she stalked past him into the castle.

“I dinnae intend tae go on a journey with ye ever again, Tad.”

Tad followed behind her. Something in her spirited words had made that dragon purr once again in his gut. He shook his head as he followed her into the castle.

She is forbidden tae ye, ye idiot. Remember that.

 

 

1520, Rósmire Castle, Scotland

Madden Kinnaird sat in the library of Rósmire Castle drinking brandy with his best friend, Keelin Macrae. She was visiting her sister, Edith, lady of Rósmire Castle, where Madden was a skilled warrior and advisor to the laird. Edith had married the Laird Braden Hamilton and they had a newborn baby together named Teigue. Keelin had come for the birth and stayed to help her sister.

“Give me yer hand,” Keelin requested.

“My hand?” Madden asked in confusion. “Why dae ye need me hand?”

“There was a gypsy woman at the last gathering from Wick, and she taught me how tae read palms. I want tae read yer future,” Keelin explained.

Madden chuckled. “I doubt that ye will see very much, but if it pleases ye.” He surrendered his hand to her for examination.

Keelin sat looking at his palm for quite a while in silence.

“Is there nothing tae read, lass? Dae I nae have a future?” He asked in jest.

“Haud yer wheesht. This is harder than it looks,” she reprimanded him returning to silence.

At long last, she finally looked up at him with a smile. Madden laughed at the pleased look on her face. “What did ye see that has ye so pleased? Dae I have a future after all?”

“Aye, ye do indeed,” she informed him with a wide smile. “Ye will soon meet the woman who is tae become yer wife.”

“I willnae,” Madden argued, shaking his head. “I have nae interest in marriage at this time.”

“Whether ye have any interest or nae, it is going tae happen. Ye will meet this woman, ye will marry, and ye will have three bouncing bairns,” Keelin argued.

Madden shook his head. He had no interest in finding a wife. When his mother, Elaine, had been ill, he had taken her to France to see a physician that was believed to work miracles. While there, Madden had fallen in love with his mother’s nurse. He had planned to wed the lass, but she had proven unfaithful, as she was married to another. Madden had been heartbroken. Soon thereafter his mother had died, and he had torn through France drinking, whoring, and fighting his way through his grief until a near death experience had awakened him to his foolishness and he had returned to Scotland a different man.

“Life is nae that simple, Kee,” Madden explained with a sigh.

“I did nae say that it would be simple. Ye will have a difficult beginning.”

“What kind of difficulty?”

“I dinnae ken. Yer palm does nae tell me everything. Given yer reputation, ye will probably have yer way with the wrong woman. There is something about being unfaithful that is coming through. I dinnae ken if it is ye or nae. It will all be well in the end as ye find yer truest love, just as yer maither and faither did.”

Madden frowned. “My maither and faither had to flee their own families tae be together. That is how they came tae be here on Hamilton lands. They were never unfaithful tae one another. True happiness can nae be found in infidelity.”

“Ye will see,” Keelin gave him a knowing eye.

“And when dae ye propose that this mystery wife of mine will appear?”

“I am reading yer palm, nae a calendar,” Keelin laughed.

“Ye saw that someone was unfaithful and that was nae in my palm.”

“True,” she nodded. “I will try.” Keeling closed her eyes. She squinted them shut in concentration, then opened them with a wide smile of satisfaction. “Ye will meet her this summer.”

“But it is summer now,” Madden pointed out, laughing. “Where dae ye believe that ye are getting this insight from anyway?”

Keelin shrugged her shoulders. “I dinnae ken from whence it came. I simply felt it. Mayhap it is God, mayhap it is the spirits of our ancestors. It doesnae matter. Ye will meet yer wife this summer.”

“I would nae perform this palm reading fer just anyone, Kee. Ye might be mistaken fer a witch and put tae death.”

“I will be careful. I promise.”

Curiosity got the better of him and he could not help but ask. “And how shall I meet this wife of mine?”

Keelin’s smile took on a mischievous turn. “I dinnae ken, Madden. Maybe the gods will be gracious, and she will fall intae yer lap from the sky.”

The door to the library swung open and the Laird Braden Hamilton entered. He looked at his dearest friend and his sister-in-law with a smile. “Just the two people that I wished tae speak with.”

“Oh?” Madden raised an eyebrow, passing Braden a drink.

Braden took it gratefully and took a sip. “That is good.”

“Aye, it is. It was part of that last batch I brought over from France,” Madden replied.

Braden nodded. “It is on the matter of travel that I wish tae speak with ye. As ye are aware, Keelin will be returning home upon the morrow.”

“Aye,” Madden nodded.

“The man who I had arranged tae escort her has come down with an ague and can nae longer accompany her. I was wondering if ye would be up tae the task.”

Madden nodded. “Aye, I can escort her safely home.”

“I would like tae stop and see me cousin Arran, laird tae the Clan MacKay, on the way home,” Keelin added, looking at them both with hopeful eyes.

“Aye, I believe that we can arrange that,” Madden nodded.

Braden nodded, pleased. “Good. I thank ye, me friend.”

“We can nae entrust her tae just anyone now, can we?” Madden gave Keelin a wink.

Braden shook his head. “Nay, we cannae. She is a braw lass tae be certain. Me wife would have me innards for haggis if anything happened tae her sister.”

“Aye, she would at that,” Keelin laughed at the image his words painted.

Braden nodded. “Speaking of me wife, I am away tae bed. I will see ye both away in the morning.” Braden finished his drink, handed Madden back the glass, then left them to their own devices.

Keelin stood, finishing the last of her drink as well. “I will bid ye a good night as well.”

Madden looked up in surprise. “Ye dinnae usually go tae bed this early,” he remarked.

“I am nae going tae bed,” she retorted with a mischievous smile.

Madden raised a brow in question. “Where are ye going then?”

Keelin threw him a wink. “Aiden.”

Madden laughed. “Ye are going tae drive that poor lad tae madness. Ye have been toying with him and the other lads as if ye were a cat with a mouse from the moment that ye stepped foot in the castle.”

Keelin shrugged. “I dinnae allow any of them tae touch me. Me reputation and virtue are still intact.”

“Heaven help the lad ye finally allow tae kiss ye. The other will be standing in line tae fight him fer the honor.”

Keelin laughed. “Fighting will nae earn a man a kiss from me. It takes a lot more than that tae win me affections.”

“I am afraid tae ask,” Madden laughed in reply shaking his head at her. “Be careful, Kee.”

“I always am,” she replied, then closed the door behind her.

Madden sat in the library alone finishing his drink.

One day she will find her match and neither of them will ken what tae dae with the other.

Thinking about finding a spouse reminded him of Keelin’s predictions. He looked down at his hand, studying the lines of his palm and wondered whether anything she had said was true. He could not help but wonder if there truly was a woman waiting for him in the near future or if it had all been in Keelin’s imagination. Shaking his head, he downed his drink and stood to ready himself for the next day’s journey. “True or nae, I have nae need of a wife.”

***

The next morning, Madden and Keelin set out on horseback after having bid Braden and Edith farewell. The sisters had exchanged hugs and tears.

“Come back soon,” Edith instructed her sister.

“I will.”

Braden gave his sister-in-law a hug. “We thank ye fer coming tae help with the bairn. It meant a lot tae yer sister.”

“Always,” Keelin replied, giving him a squeeze, then had mounted her horse and rode through the gates.

As they rode out of the castle courtyard, Madden started laughing.

“What are you laughing about?” Keelin asked, sniffling and wiping the tears from her cheeks.

Braden shook his head. “I am nae laughing at ye, Kee. I am laughing at the poor men standing on the ramparts that look like they have been gut punched.”

Keelin looked back at the men that he was referring to. Sure enough, every last one of the men that she had flirted with were standing on guard duty looking as if someone had stolen their favorite horse. Chuckling, she turned back towards the road. “They will recover.”

Braden snorted. “Nae likely.”

They rode on in companionable silence, stopping to take care of the horses’ and their own needs along the way. The journey went blessedly without incident. When night fell, they stopped at a village inn and arranged for two rooms and a meal. When Keelin went to bed early, tired from the ride and emotionally drained from having to leave her sister behind once more, Madden, restless and unable to sleep, went for a walk.

And all he could think about was the mystery woman he was supposed to meet just about… now.

 

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Chapter One

“By this time tomorrow, ye will be someone else’s problem,” Madden Kinnaird teased his best friend, Keelin Macrae, as she stuffed yet another bannock into her mouth, washing it down with large gulps of ale. She was drawing quite a few stares from the other men in the room, some of judgmental disgust, others of interest. Keelin was a beautiful young woman, but she was not what one might call a lady of delicate sensibilities. “Ye eat like one of the animals in the stable.” He laughed as she kicked him under the table.

“Ye will miss me and ye ken it all tae well,” she retorted, wiping her mouth with a cloth.

They had stopped at an inn for the night to allow the horses to rest and to eat on their way to visit Keelin’s cousin, the Laird Arran MacKay. Keelin had been at Castle Rósmire for the last several months assisting her sister, Edith, with her newborn infant son Teigue. Madden worked as a warrior and advisor for Edith’s husband, the Laird Braden Hamilton, and had been entrusted with Keelin’s care as she returned home to the rest of her family. Along the way, she had requested to visit her cousin Arran. Madden, unable to refuse her anything, had acquiesced.

“Aye, I will at that,” he admitted. His eye was caught by a passing barmaid with an ample bosom and hips that were made for grabbing ahold of. He turned his head, watching her walk away.

“Ye only wish tae be rid o’ me so that ye can go about chasing after loose skirts,” Keelin called him out on his well-known womanizing behavior. “It has nothing tae dae with me table manners, or lack thereof.”

Madden turned his attention back to Keelin. “I cannae rightly be chasing after the lassies when I have ye in tow, now can I? Women tend nae tae want tae kiss me when ye are sitting there giving them yer judgmental glare.”

Keelin laughed. “Good. Perhaps it will keep ye alive longer. Many a wandering cockerel has met his conclusion at the end of a blade.”

Madden shook his head. “I dinnae have me way with married women. Ye ken that.”

“Husbands are nae the only ways that ye could die if ye are letting yer tauger rule yer choices,” she pointed out, raising her brow in judgement. “Ye would nae be near as braw a lad with the pox.”

“Kee!” Madden chastised. “If yer faither and maither heard ye speak with such language, they would have both of our heads.”

Keelin shook her head. “Me family ken how I am well enough. They ken how ye are as well.” She cocked her head to the side studying his face for a moment. “I ken ye are nae as ye were afore ye left fer France. Many a time Braden has said ye are slower tae anger now and more prone tae thinking things through. Ye have changed.”

Madden knew she was right. He nodded in agreement, accepting the compliment. “For the better, I hope,” he murmured, thinking back to all of the pain that had been the catalyst for the changes that he had made.

“Aye fer the most part, ye are better. Yer distrust of any woman that is nae as a sister tae ye, however, is going tae cause ye more trouble than nae,” she warned.

Madden shrugged. “I would give up women altogether, but alas I am nae a monk. A man has his needs.”

Keelin snorted. “Nae, ye are nae a monk tae be certain. Nae a man or woman alive would ever mistake ye fer one.” She gave him a sympathetic look. She did not know everything that had happened in France or why he felt the way that he did about the feminine sex, but she knew that it had to have been something terrible to alter him as it had. “I dinnae expect ye tae be a monk. I simply urge caution when choosing a bed mate.”

Madden nodded. “I have heard ye, Kee, and I thank ye fer the caring o’ me immortal soul.”

Keelin laughed. “I dinnae ken about yer soul, but I would rather have ye among the living as nae. Pox-riddled in a grave is nae a good look fer any man, even one as bonnie as ye.”

Madden made a face. Not wanting to think about France, women, or the pox, he attempted to change the subject. “What about ye? I saw how ye were with the guards at the castle.”

Keelin shook her head, a mischievous light in her eyes. “There is nothing tae ken. Me virtue is intact. I have done nothing tae compromise meself.”

“Keep it that way,” Madden advised, giving her a look of warning. “Ye dinnae want tae be forced tae live yer life with a man that is undeserving o’ ye.”

Keelin cocked her head to the side, her brow raised in question. “And what of ye? The same fate could await ye. Dae ye nae fear getting a woman with child and being forced tae wed her at the point of a blade?”

Madden shook his head. “I will nae wed.”

Keelin frowned at him in concern. “Ye would nae leave a lass tae be dishonored. I ken ye better than that.”

Madden shook his head. “Nae, I would nae abandon her or the child. I would care fer the bairn, but I would nae wed the lass. I would arrange fer her tae wed another more suitable husband and pay the dowry and the bride price.” He knew that it made him sound heartless, but the exact opposite was true. He would not saddle any lass with a loveless marriage. His parents had truly loved one another, and he had sworn to his mother on her death bed that he would not wed for anything less than the truest of loves. As he no longer believed that such a thing was possible for him, he had resolved himself to never marry.

Keelin’s brow wrinkled in concern. She held his eyes in sympathy. “Ye have changed. What happened in France, Madden? Why dae ye never speak about it?”

Madden had known that this conversation was coming. Both Braden and Keelin had been asking a great many questions about his time in France in the year since his return. Neither of them, despite being his dearest friends in all of the world, knew the fullness of his story and it bothered them. He could see the concern in their eyes every time that they asked him about it. He knew that they wanted to help him, to ease the grief of his mother’s passing, but in truth there was nothing that either of them could do.

When his mother had fallen ill, Madden had taken her to a physician in France who was believed to be a miracle worker. While there, he had fallen in love with his mother’s nurse. They had shared a bed together, spoken of a future together. He had planned to wed her, but then had discovered that she was wed to another already and that she had been using him to make her husband jealous. She had shared his bed to get revenge for her husband having been unfaithful to her. Shortly thereafter, Madden’s mother had died. Madden had taken his sorrow and heartbreak out on the enemies of France, working as a mercenary until a near death experience had made him see the light and pushed him to return home.

“Me maither died,” Madden snapped, not wanting to talk about it further. He knew that his voice was harsher than was necessary, but every time that the subject was broached it felt as if he was drowning in the pain all over again. He had worked hard within himself to move on from it as best as he could. He did not appreciate being forced to feel it all again. “What more dae ye want?”

“Madden,” Keelin said his name, her tone was firm but compassionate. “I ken that yer maither died, but the distrust that ye are carrying around with ye was nae caused by yer maither.”

Madden shook his head. “Nae, it is nae. She was a good woman, and I will nae have anyone believe otherwise by me actions or have her memory dishonored.”

Keelin nodded knowingly. “Ye are going tae have tae tell me what happened at some point. Ye cannae live yer life with such pain inside of ye and nae once speak of it tae anyone. It will eat ye alive from the inside.”

Madden sighed. “I am sorry, Kee. I didnae mean tae be rude. I dinnae care tae speak of it.”

“Was there a woman in France? Someone who hurt ye? Someone who was unfaithful?”

Madden looked up at Keelin in surprise. “How did ye ken such a thing?”

She gave him a knowing look. “The distrust that ye brought back with ye could only be born of such a thing.”

Madden looked at Keelin with new admiration. “Ye are wiser than ye look.”

“I will take that as a compliment,” she retorted, giving him a warning look not to argue with her if he had meant it in any other way.

“Ye should,” he nodded, smiling.

“Tell me what happened in France,” Keelin requested, her tone leaving no doubt that she felt it was long past time. “Tell me what happened with this woman.”

Madden sighed but nodded in surrender. He owed her the truth. It was not kind of him to let her fret and worry. “As ye well ken, when me mother was ill, I took her tae see a physician in France,” he began.

“Aye,” Keelin nodded in confirmation.

“While we were there, I formed an attachment tae her nurse.”

“An attachment?” Keelin eyed him inquisitively.

“I fell in love with her,” Madden admitted grudgingly.

Keelin nodded. “So, what happened?”

Madden shrugged his shoulders. “She was married.”

Keelin’s brows arched in censure. “Ye did nae ken?”

“Nae, I did nae ken that she was another man’s wife.” He would have been insulted had it been anyone else but Keelin that had asked. “In fairness, I did nae ask. I simply assumed that when she crawled in tae me bed that she was free tae dae so.”

Keelin gave him a sympathetic look. “Did ye wish tae wed her yerself?”

Madden nodded. “Aye, I did. That is how I discovered that she was wed tae another. Soon thereafter me maither died. I was destroyed and was nae good fer anything but fighting and drinking and whoring me way through France.”

Keelin nodded in understanding. “That is why it took ye so long tae return.”

Madden nodded, sighing. “Aye, I could nae come back tae me life here with how I was feeling. I was destructive tae meself and tae others. It took nearly dying fer me tae see sense and tae return home.”

“I am glad ye did come home, otherwise we would never have met. Ye are a sight better of a companion tae travel with tae escort me home than an auld stodgy guard” Keelin smiled at him in compassionate understanding. “I thank ye fer finally telling me the truth.”

“I would appreciate it if ye kept what I have told ye tae yerself,” he requested, not wishing his pain to be known far and wide. “I will tell Braden about what happened in France, when and if I feel that he needs tae ken it.”

Keelin nodded. “Yer secrets are safe with me, Madden. Ye ken that.”

“Aye, I dae.” He gave her a sheepish smile. “I thank ye fer yer discretion.”

“Always.” She reached over and gave his hand a reassuring squeeze.

Wishing to change the subject, Madden turned the conversation towards Keelin. “Tell me of this cousin of yers.”

Keelin smiled at the thought of her favorite cousin. “Arran is me maither’s first cousin, but they are as close tae one another as braither and sister. They grew up together.”

“Ah, that is why I have heard ye call him Uncle Arran.”

“Aye,” Keelin nodded. “He has been more of an uncle tae me than any other man ever has.”

“I have heard things about the MacKay lairds of the past from yer cousin’s line,” Madden mused. “If their reputation has any truth tae it, they were nae all good men.”

Keelin shook her head. “Arran is a good man, unlike his faither. Ye and Arran both have quite a lot in common. He fought in France as well fer many years. When both of his parents died on the same day, Arran’s sister sent word fer him, and he came home. He has done well fer the clan since becoming laird.”

“How did his parents die?”

Keelin frowned at the memory. “Uncle Rory, Arran’s father, was drunk. He stumbled and fell dragging his wife, me Aunt Ella, down with him. He hit his head on the stone of the hearth landing on top of her as he fell. He died instantly. She died a week later, having never awakened. They were visiting a friend at the time. It was so sudden. We never got tae say goodbye.”

Madden reached out and patted her hand in compassion. “I am sorry fer yer loss.”

Keelin shook her head. “I was never fond of Uncle Rory, but I loved me Aunt Ella very much. She was me maither’s sister, we all miss her.”

Madden nodded in understanding. “I have seen the drink make men dae terrible things.”

“It was a bloody awful waste of a life,” Keelin replied, anger in her eyes.

“What of Arran’s sister? What became of her?”

“She is married tae the laird of her grandmother’s clan. I have nae seen her in years. We exchange the occasional letter, but that is it. We were once quite good friends when we were children. I miss her.”

“Perhaps ye will see each other when we arrive at her braither’s castle.”

Keelin shrugged her shoulders. “I doubt it. From what I have heard, her husband does nae allow her tae visit her braither very often.”

Madden frowned. He did not care for men who were overly controlling of those under their care. “A lass should nae be kept from her family. I saw the effect being estranged from her family had on me maither. She and me faither were not given their families’ blessings tae wed. They tried tae forget one another but they could nae. They married against their families’ wishes and were shunned fer it. That is how they came tae live on Hamilton lands. Me maither loved me faither, and they had a braw life together, but when he died, all of the family that she had left was me. It was nae an easy time fer her.”

“Now she is with yer faither, and they are happy together once more.”

“Aye,” Madden nodded. “They are. They were good people.”

“I am sorry that ye dinnae have a family of yer own.” Keelin gave him a sympathetic look.

Madden shrugged his shoulders. “I dae have family. I have ye, and Braden, and now Edith and their wee bairn.”

“Aye, ye have us,” Keelin smiled, nodding in reassurance. “But I still believe that we should find ye a wife tae make ye wee bairns of yer own.” She lifted a brow wiggling it suggestively. “Perhaps yon barmaid? She had birthing hips.”

Madden shook his head, laughing. “I dinnae believe that the world is ready fer me tae have bairns. Can ye imagine the trouble the wee lads and lassies would get in tae? I dinnae believe it tae be a wise course of action.

Keelin gave him a look of disagreement but did not push him further. “As ye wish. It is yer life.” Stretching, she pushed away from the table and stood. “I am away tae bed.”

“Ye dinnae want tae join me fer a dram?”

Keelin shook her head. “Nae, I am tired tae the bone and wish tae be well rested when we arrive at Arran’s castle. Besides, ye will have better luck in finding a bed partner if ye dinnae have me tagging along.”

Madden gave her a reproachful look. “Ye dinnae behave as a lady is expected tae behave, nor speak as one is expected tae speak.”

Keelin laughed. “I never claimed tae be a lady. The way I behave and speak is why ye adore me as ye dae. I wouldnae be nearly as much fun if I behaved as a proper lady should.”

Madden chuckled. “I cannae deny it.”

“I will see ye in the morning,” Keelin promised. Standing, she laid a reassuring hand on his shoulder, then left the table and climbed the stairs to her room. He watched her until she was out if sight to make certain that none of the other men in the room gave her a hard time. Madden had ensured that she had been given a room with a sturdy bar over the door so that he could rest assured of her safety. His room was next to hers as a secondary means of protection.

Throwing back the last of his ale, he stood and left the inn to go and check on the horses. He eyed the tavern down the street considering his options for a bed companion. The barmaid had been attractive, but she was the innkeeper’s daughter and that could get complicated. He did not wish to be barred from the inn when they were in need of rest. They would most likely need to stay there again on the way through to Keelin’s parents’ lands. If he were being completely honest with himself, he was too tired to be chasing after skirt.

It is tae bad a bonnie lass could nae simply drop in tae me lap as a gift from God without requiring any effort on me part tae bring her tae me bed. He chuckled at the ridiculous image and entered the stables.

After checking on the horses, he made his way around to the side of the building where the innkeeper had placed a table and chairs for his guests. Lowering himself down onto one of them, he leaned back and closed his eyes. The sounds from the inn filtered through the walls, men talking, laughing, and shouting. There were pots and pans banging around in the kitchen. A dog barked in the distance, setting off another dog in response, which set them both to howling. Madden doubted that he would sleep very well. When traveling alone he would usually sleep out in the open, but with Keelin, he had not wanted to risk her safety.

Keelin was a good traveling companion. It had been a trouble-free ride with pleasant conversation. Madden looked forward to meeting her cousin, the Laird Arran MacKay, and exchanging war stories. Keelin had said that they had a lot in common. They had both lost their parents. They had both fought in France. They both cared about Keelin and her family. Madden figured that on those commonalities alone that they could strike up an amiable acquaintance.

Lost in his own thoughts, he did not have any warning when a large lump of warm flesh and fabric came tumbling down from above him and landed hard onto his lap. “Och!” He shouted in protest as his eyes flew open and he came face to face with a dark-haired, grey-eyed lass. Within the next breath, before Madden had a chance to react, she squarely punched him in the face.

“Unhand me!”

Chapter Two

Isabelle Sutherland sat by the hearth reading her favorite book as she distractedly played with her mother’s necklace. From the day that her mother had died, she had never taken it off. It was the only thing that she had left of her. It was her comfort in times of distress, and unfortunately, she was often in distress.

“Isabelle!” She was pulled out of her quiet contemplation by her husband, Bain, as he stormed into the room. “There ye are. I have been looking fer ye.”

“Where else would I be?” she asked. “Ye banished me tae this room upon our arrival.”

Isabelle knew that her tone was not respectful, but he controlled everything about her life and never allowed her to go anywhere or do anything without him or his second in command, Athol, accompanying her. Bain, old enough to be her father, was constantly accusing her of being unfaithful with the younger men of the clan. They had never loved each other, and it showed in their every interaction with one another. Theirs was a marriage of dire necessity and nothing more.

He gave her a warning look, before continuing. “We must leave at first light if we are tae reach yer braither’s stronghold afore dusk. We cannae afford tae stay the night in another inn.”

“We could have slept out in the open and nae paid fer one tae begin with,” she reminded him.

Bain gave her another warning glare. “I will nae have it said that me wife sleeps in the dirt among unwashed men.”

“It would nae have been the first time. I slept out of doors often as a child when me family travelled.”

Bain waved away her logic. “It is of nae consequence. Once I have secured a loan from yer braither, our financial concerns will be brought tae an end.”

“A loan must be paid back. It is a temporary measure at best. It is also possible that me braither will nae loan ye the money. He would never dae anything that might cause his own people tae suffer,” Isabelle pointed out. “Would it nae be better tae admit tae the king and tae the clan that yer business speculations failed and that ye cannae pay yer taxes or provide fer the clan fer the winter?”

Fire flared from Bain’s eyes, and he strode across the room, pulling her up by the wrist. The book that she had been reading clattered to the floor. “Dinnae question me! Yer braither will give me the money, and ye will see that he does, or I will tell him of how yer parents truly died and how ye came tae wed me.”

Isabelle struggled against his grasp to no avail. “It has been eleven years. Will ye ever cease threatening me with blackmail?”

“Nae, I will nae. Speak another word and ye will discover just how true me threats are.” The menacing tone of his voice let her know that he was not to be tested. She closed her mouth and did not say another word, as instructed. With her falling silent, Bain let go of her wrist. Blood rushed back into her hand, causing it to tingle as if she had stuck pins in it. The skin of her wrist was already starting to turn red. “I am going tae the tavern fer a dram with Athol. I have placed a guard outside of yer bedchamber door. Ye are tae remain in this room fer the rest of the night. The innkeeper’s wife will bring ye yer food.”

“Dae ye nae plan tae return?”

Bain laughed. “What would I have reason tae return fer? Why would I choose tae lie with a barren bitch, when there are fertile young lassies at the tavern who I dinnae have tae fight with tae take me intae their beds?”

“I am yer wife. Ye are me husband. Yer whoring shames us both.” Isabelle feared that her brother might hear of Bain’s activities this close to his lands. She did not wish to stand before her brother, having brought such shame to their family name.

Bain snorted. “Ye are nae wife tae me. Were ye a true wife, ye would have produced me an heir. As ye are nae able tae, I must pup a bastard on tae whores in hopes of producing a male heir. The only one shaming us is ye.” Turning, Bain left the room, slamming the door behind him.

Isabelle crossed the room and placed the bar over the door. Neither he, nor any of his men, would be allowed to enter this night. The last thing that she wished to endure before seeing her brother was to have her drunken husband forcing himself upon her. She did not need any more bruises. It was going to be difficult enough to hide the ones that she already had.

Anger surged up within her, threatening to overwhelm her entire being. She despised her husband for all of his abuses. She wished like anything that she could lash out at him in some way, but she had no way of hurting him. He held all of the power in their marriage. The only way that she could even put a dent in his armor would be to cheat on him with another man. Even then, it would only be a wound to his pride, not to his heart.

He would have tae have a heart tae hurt it, and he does nae have one. The only positive outcome of such an action would be me own secret knowledge that I had betrayed him in some small way.

She sighed shaking her head.

What man would I be able tae dae such a thing with? It cannae be one of his own men and I am never around any other. Bain has me guarded night and day.

Isabelle snorted.

Dinnae fool yerself, Isabelle. Ye may be brave, but ye are nae that brave. Ye may nae wish fer yer body tae be possessed by the likes of Bain Sutherland, but ye lack the courage tae surrender yerself tae a strange man simply fer the pleasure of vengeance. Ye are trapped and ye ken it. After all of these years, ye would think that ye would have accepted it by now.

Leaving her book abandoned where it had fallen on the floor, she walked over to the open window and looked out at the starlit night. Reaching up, she clutched her mother’s necklace in her hand. The coolness of the metal and stones against the palm of her hand brought her comfort. She missed her mother so very much each and every day, but it was in moments like this that she missed her the most. If anyone could have understood the pain that she felt in her marriage, it would have been her mother.

Isabelle missed her brother as well, but she could not be around him without feeling guilty for what she had done and for keeping it from him. The thought of facing him after all of these years made her nervous.

The farther away from Arran I am, the better fer him.

The memory of the day her father died flashed through her mind and her hand jerked in an emotional response to the pain and panic that flooded back into her being. To her great dismay, the jerking motion broke free the necklace from her person and she watched in horror as it plunged down into the darkness below. Her hand shot out in an attempt to catch it, but she was too late.

“Nae!” She silently cried out in distress. She could feel the panic and sorrow rising up within her as tears filled her eyes. To her great relief, the necklace came to rest on a lantern hook just below the window.

Leaning out the window, she hung onto the wooden frame as she attempted to retrieve the necklace. She leaned as far as she could, but it was just out of her reach. Unable to regain the necklace while holding onto the frame with her hands, she let go and used her legs to hold onto the windowsill. Unfortunately, her dress got in the way and did not allow her to grab ahold of the frame with enough force to maintain her balance. The moment that her hand was just about to grasp the necklace, her body gave way, and she plunged down into the darkness below.

“Ah!” She cried out in fear as she fell.

She fully expected to land on the hard ground and be injured, but instead she landed right onto the lap of a complete and total stranger. Taken aback and panicking that any moment one of her husband’s men would find her in such a compromising position, she reached out and punched the man square in the face.

“Unhand me!” She demanded with as much authority as she could manage, given her vulnerable position.

The man groaned and then raised his hands as if in surrender. “What were ye doing, lass? If ye wished tae sit on me lap, all ye need dae is ask.”

Isabelle scrambled up off of his lap and put some distance between them. “I was attempting tae retrieve me necklace.” She motioned above his head to where the necklace still dangled from the lantern hook. “I fell out of the window.”

The man stood and turned to look up to where she pointed. “Ye fell from that window?” His brows arched in surprise.

“Aye, I did,” Isabelle admitted, lifting her chin in defiance.

He turned back to look at her. His face was shadowed, and she could not make out his individual features, but his tone left no doubt as to his disapproval. “What were ye thinking? Ye could have fallen and broken yer neck.”

“Ye have nae right tae chastise me,” Isabelle retorted, her pride wounded. “I dinnae ken who ye are, nor dae ye ken who I am. I owe ye nae explanations.”

“Perhaps nae, but ye did fall on me,” he pointed out.

“Fer that I apologize. It was nae me intent. Did I hurt ye when I fell?”

The man shook his head. “Nay, nae too much, I am nae harmed, although that was quite a fall. Good thing ye are as light as a feather. What value does this necklace have that ye would risk yer neck fer it?”

“It was me maither’s,” she explained. The word was hung in the air between them, heavy with unspoken meaning.

“I take it that she is nae longer with ye, lass?” His tone had gentled, holding empathy where it had held judgement but a brief moment before.

“She is nae.” Isabelle could feel the tears welling up in her eyes and she tried her best to fight them back. “She died many years ago.”

“I sorrow fer yer loss. I tae lost me maither, and me faither afore that.”

“As did I,” Isabelle admitted.

“So, we are both orphans,” he observed. “God rest their souls.”

They stood there for a moment in shared loss.

“Well, we had best get ye that necklace back.” The man turned back and eyed the distance to the necklace. Stepping up onto the chair he had just been sitting in, he used it to step up onto the table. He tested the table’s stability by wiggling its legs, but it held. “Hand me that chair, would ye, lass?”

Isabelle stepped forward and lifted the chair up onto the table. “Yer are nae going tae climb on that are ye? That does nae look stable,” she cautioned.

“Aye, it is foolish, I will admit, but needs must.” Securing the chair on the table, he turned back to her. “Would ye hold the legs fer me?”

“Aye,” Isabelle agreed, and taking the legs in her hands, she held on tightly. “Be careful,” she warned. She did not wish to be responsible for bringing him, or any other person, to harm.

The man nodded, then climbed up onto the chair. He reached up as high as he could but came short of the lantern hook. Taking in his options, he used the structural elements of the side of the building to scale the wall and retrieved the necklace, whereupon he placed it inside of his shirt to keep it safe. “I have it,” he confirmed to reassure her. “It appears tae be undamaged.” As he was closer to the window than the ground, he climbed up into her room and poked his head back out of the window. “I will meet ye down in the dining room,” he called back down to her.

“Nae!” Isabelle cried out in panic. She knew that Bain’s man would still be standing outside of her bedchamber door. She scrambled for a believable explanation that did not reveal the shame and abuse that she was forced to endure every day. “Are ye mad? Ye cannae be seen coming out of me bedchamber, ye will shatter me reputation.”

“Och, lass. I did nae think. Me apologies. I will come back down.”

“First, help me tae climb up there,” Isabelle instructed. She could not be seen returning to her room either when she had not been seen to leave it to begin with. Her husband would hear of it, and she would never be left alone in her own room again. She would not put it past her husband to bar every window in the castle once they returned home if he discovered what she had done.

“Are ye certain that ye wish tae climb, lass? It isnae as easy as it looks. Could ye nae simply walk around tae the front of the inn? It would be safer fer ye.”

“What would be the fun in that?” Isabelle retorted with a bravado that she did not feel in an attempt to hide her fear of being caught and punished.

She climbed up onto the table, and then onto the chair. She followed the man’s steps exactly, climbing up the side of the building as he had done, careful not to let her dress get in the way. It was far more difficult than it had looked when he had done it. When she finally reached the lantern hook, she could not find any other way to get to the window. The man had simply hefted himself up with his arms, yet she did not possess the upper body strength to do the same. She looked up at him in uncertainty.

“I have ye, lass,” he reassured her, and leaned out of the window. Grabbing her wrists, he hefted her back up into the room. Before she knew what was happening, they fell together into the room onto the floor, Isabelle falling on top of him. Mortified, she scrambled to her feet as quickly as possible, feeling her cheeks warming.

“I thank ye fer yer help. Were it nae fer ye, I might have broken me neck.”

Laughing, the man stood up, shaking his head. “It has been a livelier evening than I expected.” In the light of the fire from the hearth, they could finally see each other without the shadows of the night obscuring their view. His brows arched in surprise as he took her in. “Och, lass, did I hurt ye?” he asked, gesturing towards the bruises on her wrists.

Isabelle shook her head. “It is from the fall,” she lied. She was not about to tell him of the abuses that she endured. He was a total stranger and for all that she knew he could know her husband.

She let her eyes sweep over his form as he looked around the room in curiosity. He was a large mountain of a man, tall, muscular, with long blonde hair tied up into a knot with a leather strap, and dark eyes that threatened to swallow her whole. He was a beautiful Viking of a Highland man. He was so big that he made the room feel entirely too close. Isabelle gulped and turned away to hide the effect that his presence in the suddenly tiny room had on her.

“Are ye well, lass? Did ye hurt yerself elsewhere in the fall?” His concerned voice caused her to turn back towards him.

“A bit perhaps, but I am well,” she reassured him.

“Shall I fetch ye a healer?”

Isabelle shook her head. “Nae, I will be well. Dinnae fash.”

They stood there looking at each other for a moment. Isabelle could feel herself blushing under his gaze.

“Me name is Madden,” he finally introduced himself, breaking the silence.

“Isabelle,” she reciprocated, offering him her hand out of habit.

He took it in his and kissed it. “Me lady,” he murmured against her skin, then raised himself back up to his full height, standing closer than before. He retrieved the necklace from his shirt and handed it to her.

“I owe ye for this,” Isabelle thanked him, taking the necklace. “I am grateful for yer help.”

“How can I refuse a debt of gratitude from such a bonnie lass.” He smiled at her charmingly.

“As I will most likely never see ye again, I dinnae ken how I can repay ye fer yer kindness. I would pay ye coin, but I dinnae have any tae give.” Isabelle looked around the room to see what she might offer him.

“I was considering going tae the tavern fer a dram. Ye could accompany me,” Madden offered.

Isabelle could not do as he asked, but she did not wish to tell him why. “We could have a dram together here. I have a flask in me belongings,” she offered. “But we must be quiet. Me clansmen are resting in the adjacent rooms and could be strolling around”.

Madden smiled wider and nodded in agreement. “Aye, we could at that. And I will be as quiet as a mouse.”

Isabelle motioned for him to take the seat opposite where she had been reading earlier. She listened at the door to make certain that the guard had not heard anything, then ruffled through her belongings to find her flask of medicinal alcohol. Retrieving the flask, she joined him in front of the hearth. Sitting down across from him, she noticed that he had picked her book up off of the floor.

“This is a good one,” he remarked, handing it back to her.

“Aye, it is,” she agreed, smiling. “It is one of me favorites.”

“Dae ye enjoy reading?” he asked with a curious light in his eyes.

“Aye, I dae. I have more books in that bag than I dae clothes,” she admitted motioning towards the bag that she had retrieved the flask from. “I always travel with them.”

Madden smiled, nodding in approval. “I admire a woman of learning.”

Isabelle cocked her head to the side, studying him quietly. She extended him the flask and he took it gratefully.

“What is that look about?” he asked, with an interested light in his eyes.

Isabelle shook her head. “Nae all men admire a woman of learning.”

“Then they are fools,” he shrugged. “What is life without books?”

“Indeed,” she agreed with a smile.

He took a sip from the flask and handed it back to her. Isabelle accepted it and took her own small sip. She handed the flask back to him and decided to put her book back in the bag to keep it from being further abused. When she rejoined him, she found him staring into the flames of the fire as if it held the secrets of the world in its depths. He looked up at her when she approached and smiled apologetically.

“Me apologies.”

Isabelle shook her head. “There is nae need tae apologize. Dae ye wish tae share what had ye so deep in thought?”

He shook his head. “I was just thinking of me time in France. A friend of mine recently drew me mind back tae that time and it has lingered in me thoughts since.”

Isabelle nodded in understanding. “Travel teaches us much about ourselves and life as a whole.”

Madden’s brows lifted in surprise. “Indeed, it does. Have ye traveled much yerself?”

“Nae as much as I would like. I have been tae France, but I was a much younger lass and it was nae fer very long. How was yer time there?”

Madden shook his head. “That is a complicated question.”

“Ye need nae share if ye dinnae wish tae dae so.”

“I went tae France tae find a cure fer me maither, but there was nae cure tae be had. She died before we could return home.”

“I am sorry.”

He nodded in acceptance of her condolences. “After she died, I lost meself fer a time in war and women.”

“The king of distractions.” She gave him an understanding look.

Madden nodded. “Aye, the king of distractions indeed. It took nearly dying meself fer me tae realize that I needed tae change me ways, and so I did. I have been back home fer about a year now and I ken without a doubt that it was the right thing tae dae.”

“Well, fer me sake, I am glad that ye returned. Had ye nae helped me, I dinnae ken what would have happened.”

“Ye would have broken yer neck, that is what would have happened.” He studied her face for a moment. “I ken what I want in payment fer my help.”

Isabelle chuckled. “Once a mercenary, always a mercenary.”

He grunted at her jest as if he was not quite certain what to think about it.

She gave him an apologetic look. “What is it that ye wish fer?”

“A kiss.” He said it so nonchalantly that she thought she had heard him wrong.

“A what?”

“A kiss,” he repeated. “In payment fer saving yer life, I would like fer ye tae kiss me.”

“Why?” She asked dazed.

“Ye are a bonnie lass whose company I enjoy. Why would I nae wish tae kiss ye?”

Isabelle shook her head. “Nae, I will nae kiss ye. I dinnae ken ye well enough tae share something so intimate.”

Madden snorted. “A kiss is nae intimate. I have kissed many strangers.”

“That I dinnae doubt,” she retorted.

“Kiss me,” he murmured, as he drew her chair towards him across the floor.

“Nay,” she shook her head.

“Why nae? Dae ye find me tae be repugnant? Or me character tae be displeasing?”

Isabelle shook her head. “Nae, I dinnae.”

“Then why dae ye nae wish tae kiss me?”

Isabelle did want to kiss him. It was her husband that was the problem, but she was not about to tell a complete and total stranger that. She searched her mind for an excuse, any excuse but the real one. She came up with nothing. She wanted to kiss him. He wanted to kiss her. She thought back to her notion of revenge against her husband by cheating on him with another man and all sense of resistance left her spirit.

“I want tae kiss ye,” she admitted, blushing as she did so.

A smile spread across Madden’s face. He stood up, pulling her up out of her chair to stand in front of him. Reaching up, he brushed the hair back from her face, cupping her cheek gently. His eyes met hers and she nodded her consent. Lowering his head, he brushed his lips against hers gently at first, then with more intensity. Isabelle, never having been kissed in such a caring manner, became lost in the sensation, and leaned into him, kissing him back with equal fervor and passion. Her nails dug into his shoulders, as her body pressed against the hardened length of his manhood. It was as if a feral spirit had taken over her body.

His lips moved to her neck, throat, and then down to her breasts. Isabelle threaded her fingers through his hair, pressing his head closer. His palm reached up to cup her breasts, his thumb running over the hardened peek, driving her body into a frenzy. “Oh,” she gasped, her breath coming quickly as she pulled his head back up to kiss her lips. Their tongues danced around each other, mimicking what their bodies truly craved. Isabelle moved her hips in a gyrating motion against his hardened length, showing him what she needed.

“Och, lass, if ye want me tae stop, ye had best tell me now,” Madden groaned, his forehead leaning against hers. His breath came quickly showing her that he wanted her as much as she wanted him.

“I dinnae want ye tae stop,” she answered, leaning her head back to look him in the eyes. “Dinnae stop.”

That was all of the encouragement that he needed. Lifting her up into his arms, he carried her over to the bed. Setting her down upon the edge, he took a step back and removed his shirt. The room was too dimly lit to make out every detail, but no amount of darkness could have hidden the sheer masculine power of his body. Madden’s chest, shoulders, arms, and abdomen were pure defined muscle. He stepped back towards her and she reached out to run her hands over the exposed skin.

“It is yer turn,” he murmured with a smile.

Isabelle looked up into his eyes, then lifted her arms. Grasping her dress by the skirt, he pulled upwards and lifted it up over her head. He let it fall to the floor, leaving her standing in nothing but her shift. Lowering his head, he kissed each breast, rasping each nipple gently with his teeth through the thin fabric. Ripples of pleasure spread over Isabelle’s body. Kissing his way back up to her lips, he caressed her, then pulled her shift up over her head and let it fall to the floor with her dress.

Taking a step back, he let his eyes travel the length of her body. Isabelle worried about him seeing the bruises, but when she looked down at herself, she was relieved to see that the dimness of the fire’s light covered them, casting them in shadow. “Bonnie,” he breathed, as he let the rest of his clothing fall to the floor and stood in front of her in all of his naked glory.

Isabelle’s eyes widened at the size of his hardened manhood standing erect in the air between them. “Ye are a braw lad tae be sure,” she replied breathily.

He grinned at her, then stepped forward and lifted her up into his arms, laying her down on the bed.

Placing his body over hers, he reclaimed her lips. Isabelle could feel the tip of him pressed against the inside of her thigh and she moved her hips, pressing harder against it. His shaft jerked in reply, coming to nestle against the soft curls of her nether hair. Madden’s head lowered from her lips down to her breasts. He licked and suckled each nipple in turn, driving her into a frenzy of madness as she clutched his head.

“Madden,” she breathed.

“Dae ye wish fer me tae stop?”

“Nae, dinnae stop!”

Smiling, he lowered his head to her breasts once more, then continued to kiss his way down to her nether curls. Flicking his tongue out between her lower lips, he caressed the hidden pearl within. Isabelle nearly came off of the bed. She clutched at his shoulders, digging her fingers into his muscles as he began to stroke the length of her cunt with his tongue, then sucked the bud into his mouth as he had done her nipples. He circled his tongue around it again and again, then pressed it inside her, only to move back to circling it. When he felt her legs quivering uncontrollably and she started moaning his name he stopped.

“Madden, I need ye,” she breathed, panting.

Coming up to hover over her once more, Madden looked deep into her eyes. He wanted to be inside her when she fell over the edge, but he had to ascertain something beforehand. “Are ye a virgin, lass?”

She shook her head. “I am nae a virgin,” Isabelle answered honestly.

He nodded. There was no judgement in his face. “Good, I didnae wish tae take that from ye or cause ye pain.”

“I am nae a virgin, but what experiences I have had have nae been pleasant,” she admitted. “It has never once been pleasurable.”

“We will be changing that this night,” Madden replied, caressing her cheek with the back of his fingers. “Two people lying together in this way should always be pleasurable.”

Having ensured that he would not cause her pain, he thrust his manhood into her, filling her in a single stroke.

Isabelle gasped at the sudden wave of sensation that coursed through her as he began to move inside of her. He reclaimed her lips as he kept thrusting inside of her, using one of his hands to hold himself up, while the other hand teased her nipples. The myriad of sensations caused Isabelle’s head to spin. She had never felt so much pleasure in her entire life.

“I didnae ken that it could feel this way,” she gasped against his lips.

“Just wait,” he breathed in promise as he began to move faster inside of her. As he picked up speed, the feelings inside of Isabelle grew and grew until she feared she might explode.

“Madden!” she started to cry out his name, and quickly covered her mouth. She knew that she needed something from him, but not what. Within the next moment, Isabelle fell over the cliff of pleasure into blissful oblivion.

Madden followed after her, spilling his seed deep inside of her, not able to stop himself. “Isabelle,” he breathed, leaning his forehead against hers as he emptied himself into her. Removing himself from her, he laid down on the bed beside her, drawing her into his arms. “How dae ye feel, lass?”

“Good,” Isabelle answered with a pleased smile. “I didnae ken that it could feel that way.”

“It should always feel that way,” he murmured, kissing her forehead. “It saddens me that ye have nae been pleasured as ye should have been.” He did not ask any questions about who she had been with or why, he simply accepted her as she was.

“Is it always this way fer ye?”

Madden lay in thought for a moment, then shook his head. “It is always pleasurable, but being with ye was better than most.”

Isabelle felt some small amount of pleasure at his words. “Thank ye,” she whispered.

Madden looked down into her face, his eyes meeting hers. “Ye should be pleasured every day of yer life. A lass such as ye should never be forced tae bed a stranger tae find pleasure. It is I who should thank ye fer the honor of having shared yer bed, and I dae,” he murmured lowering his head to kiss her softly.

Isabelle kissed him back, softly, sweetly. A sound from outside of the door reminded her that they were not truly alone. She wished like anything that he could stay there with her through the night, but she knew that he could not. “I am sorry, but ye must go,” she whispered.

He nodded in understanding. Rising from the bed, he retrieved his clothing from the floor. Once he was dressed, he bent over the bed and kissed her one last time. “Ye are bonnie in every way.” He moved towards the door and panic seized Isabelle’s heart.

“Ye cannae go through the door,” she reminded him. “Me fellow clansmen would be certain tae see ye.”

Madden nodded in understanding, then moved back towards the window. “I would nae wish tae be responsible fer ruining yer reputation.”

Sighing in relief, Isabelle arose from the bed, donning her shift. Walking over to the window, she bid him a final farewell. “Go carefully,” she advised, as he lowered himself over the side of the window and found a foothold on the wall. Isabelle watched as he made his way back down to the table and chairs below, then dismounted to the ground. Raising his hand in farewell, he smiled up at her one last time, then disappeared into the darkness leaving nothing but the memory of himself and the throbbing between her legs.

 

“Let me be yer lady’s maid,” Odhrán jested, needing no second bidding. He was in a state of blissful excitement, his erection pressing urgently against the front of his trews as if it would burst free at any moment. The way Maddison was looking at him with such frank desire, her lips swollen with his kisses, hair tumbling wildly over her shoulders, was fueling his lust. His eagerness to get her naked had him eagerly undoing the fastenings of her dress, humming a happy little tune as he did so.

“Ye sound like a man who’s enjoyin’ his work,” she said teasingly, smiling at him over her shoulder.

“Och, I am, I surely am,” he said, immersing himself in the erotic experience of peeling her gown away so that it slipped down from her shoulders, revealing the soft white expanse of skin hidden there. “Yer skin is so lovely, Maddison, so white and pure,” he marveled, breathing deeply to control his ardor, his fingertips gently brushing her back and neck with wonder.

His excitement increased when he felt her shiver against him in obvious arousal, and he hardened further to feel how her whole body seemed to thrill at his slightest touch. Her floral scent filled his nostrils, adding another dizzyingly sensual element to the experience for him. With a sharp breath, he pushed her hair aside and pressed his mouth to the soft nape of her neck, sucking and nuzzling her warm skin, his teeth grazing her in soft, playful bites.

“D’ye ken, ye’re the only man who has ever seen me like this?” she whispered, moaning as he trailed tiny kisses across her skin, to his intense gratification.

“Good. That’s as it should be,” he breathed in her ear, wanting to make his mark on her. “This is mine, all mine.” Closing his eyes in bliss, he reached around and cupped her naked breasts, squeezing and rolling them luxuriously in his palms. They fitted there perfectly, and he savored the wonderful feeling as his fingers toyed with her hardened peaks, sending fresh shivers of anticipation running through his body. He thrilled to feel her trembling as she lay back against his chest, gasping under his teasing caresses. He struggled to keep the demands of his body in control as his senses reeled, almost overwhelmed by both her beauty and her state of wanton abandon. The throbbing between his legs was growing more insistent.

I need tae get her out of her clothes! I have tae have all of her…

“Och, Odhrán, ye make me feel so good,” she breathed raggedly, covering his hands with her own, encouraging him to continue fondling breasts and ravish her neck.

“Mmm, I could eat ye all up,” Odhrán murmured, nuzzling her neck hungrily as if preparing to carry out his threat.

“Och, I wish ye would, Odhrán,” she sighed, making him smile and double his caresses. With a low grunt of satisfaction, he lifted Maddison up slightly. Her gown fell loosely about her shapely hips, revealing the exquisite architecture of her waist. The sinuous curves stirred something primal deep in his belly. It was almost painful to have to contain himself, but he wanted to savor every part of her, and every second of their intimacy.

“Ye’re so delicious, Maddy, so beautiful. I cannae believe ye’re mine,” he whispered, taking deep, ragged breaths to contain his lust.

“Please, dinnae stop,” she begged him, “I cannae get enough of what ye dae tae me.”

“I’m never gonnae stop, unless ye make me,” he murmured, unlacing her stays with lascivious determination. When he had loosened them enough, she willingly lifted her arms so he could pull them over her head before untying her petticoat strings. Odhran watched with greedy eyes while she wriggled out of the them and turned to face him. Entirely naked now, her teasing smile and smoky gray eyes filled with lust, she reached for him.

“Stay, let me look at ye, I want tae feast me eyes on ye,” he murmured, his erection huge and butting against her as he gently held her back by her arms. She obeyed, eyes molten, her tongue wetting her lips in expectation, while Odhrán allowed his eyes to rove freely over the pale, perfect symmetry that lay before him.

Transfixed, with both hands, he traced the globes of her breasts and the graceful indent of her waist, then the twin curve of her hips, letting out a low whistle, dazzled afresh by her beauty. The fight to control himself ramped up a notch, and an involuntary groan burst from his lips, dazed as he was by his passion for her.

“I still think I must be dreamin’, Maddy. I’ve had so many dreams about ye like this, it hardly seems real. Ye’re far more beautiful than I could ever have dreamed.” He buried his face in her breasts with a groan, his hands blindly roving over the beguiling curves of body in rapturous delight. He allowed the fingertips of one hand to slide over the firm roundness of her behind, then between her thighs, hungry to part her intricate folds and stroke her there for her pleasure.

“Odhrán!” she cried out, writhing helplessly under his touch.

“Och, ye’re burnin’,” he whispered in her ear, delving into the slick warmth of her swollen sex, his passion flaring. How he did not simply leap on her and ravish her then and there he hardly knew. But seeing her like this, begging for his touch, her usual neat composure shattered… to know he was responsible for reducing her to this state… it was as if, against all the odds, Maddison was made for him and he for her.

“I want ye so much,” she moaned, opening her legs further when his questing fingertips found her rosebud, teasing it, rubbing it with his thumb. Reveling in her ecstatic response but intent on taking her higher still, he parted her moist folds and stroked her entrance. “Och, ye’re so ready fer me, so wet,” he groaned, still more inflamed by the fact she wanted him so badly.

“Ah, Odhrán, touch me there, ah yes! More, please,” she panted, driving him almost over the edge of his control as she shifted slightly and straddled his lap, opening herself wider still.

“D’ye want me now?” he asked, making her gasp as his fingers penetrated her soaking entrance, one at first, sliding in easily, sending a jolt through her body and making her gasp aloud. When he added two more and began slowly, rhythmically, moving them in and out while strumming her bud with his thumb, the series of small, mewling cries that fell from her lips and the shuddering of her body made him frantic to plunge inside her and satisfy his lust. But he held back, determined to put her pleasure before his.

“I want ye so bad, I cannae wait much longer,” she panted, moving her body to match the rhythm of his fingers, thrilling Odhrán as she wrapped her hands in his hair and covered his face and mouth and chest with passionate kisses, bites, and caresses. Loving every moment, he continued to toy with her, watching her flushed face in delighted fascination.

“D’ye remember, Odhrán, ye asked me if I ever thought of ye this way after I was set free from here and went back tae me family?” she suddenly asked him, her breathing shallow and uneven as she rode his hand.

“Aye, I remember. And ye got angry with me and told me that this would never happen again,” he murmured, nuzzling her breasts, his fingers probing her more deeply.

“Ah, ah! That was because I did nae wantae admit that I did think of ye. I did nae want tae admit it, even tae mesel’,” she panted as he sucked and nuzzled at her hardened peaks. “But I did think of ye. Often. Every day. Every night. I tried nae tae, but I couldnae help it. I’d come tae care fer ye. And when I found out who ye were, and that ye’d lied tae me, I was so hurt I wanted tae die.” She bucked against his probing more frantically. “This is the first time I have ever spoken this truth, even to mesel’.”

Awash with furious passion, with one arm, Odhrán crushed her to him, ravaging her mouth, adding another finger and plunging deeper inside her.

“I’m so in love with ye, Maddison, it hurts,” he growled. “Thank ye fer tellin’ me the truth. Ye dinnae ken how happy it makes me tae hear ye say that.” His fingers hit a spot that made her moan loudly, and her whole body shivered against his. The quivering of her soft flesh was so exciting to him, it made it even more difficult not to simply dive into her. His erection was rock hard and throbbing, craving the deliciously snug harbor of her sex. With an extreme effort of will, he continued to hold himself back.

“It means everythin’ tae me tae ken ye were thinkin’ about me, even if it was bad things. I ken I deserved it,” he confessed hoarsely, kissing her back hungrily,

“But ye didnae deserve it,” she whispered into his mouth, clinging to him as she rose and fell against his hand. “I was wrong. I didnae ken who ye really were. I thought ye were like yer faither, though I kent ye couldnae be, because of all ye did fer me, tae keep me alive.” She clutched him to her, and Odhrán sensed her muscles tightening around his fingers, knowing the waves of ecstasy must be starting to overwhelm her. Eager to bring her to her peak, he rammed his fingers into her faster and faster, pinning her in place with his other hand on her waist, watching excitedly as she writhed and moaned against him, clearly approaching her climax.

“Ye even killed yer faither fer me,” she gasped out, holding him tightly as her body stiffened and she let out a series of loud cried as she bucked against him in the intensity of her pleasure. Odhrán’s heart swelled once more with pride to be the man who could make her lose control this way by delivering such blissful release. Now, he could seek his own.

“I’d kill that bastard a thousand times over fer ye, Maddy,” he whispered fiercely in her ear, holding her close as she recovered from her ecstasy, his ardor almost at boiling point. “And any other bastard that tries tae take ye from me.”

“Nae one is ever gonnae take me from ye, Odhrán,” she panted, reaching for the fastenings of his trews and almost tearing them aside with a greedy enthusiasm that made the fire within him burn higher still. She flung them open, allowing his manhood bursting forth from its nest of hair, tall and proud.

“Ooh, it that all fer me?” she asked coquettishly, taking his shaft in her hands and bending to run her tongue up and down its length.

“For ye and ye alone, me lady,” Odhrán said, groaning, his lust finally overwhelming him. He grabbed her around the waist, pulled her forward, and slowly impaled her on his length. She gave a satisfying gasp as he speared her, filling her to the hilt. To be inside her, held tightly by her hot, slick walls felt… exquisite. Lost in the sensation, for some time, he did not move, only stared into Maddison’s eyes as they kissed leisurely.

“I have tae tell ye the truth about somethin’ too,” he told her, lifting her by the hips and then thrusting deeply into her again with a satisfied grunt.

“Ach! Odhrán!” she cried out, sinking down on him with a moan, nipping his lip with her teeth. “I never kent it could feel this way.”

“Me neither,” he admitted, brushing the sweat-soaked hair from her flushed face and marveling again at her incredible beauty. It was the truth. He had had his fair share of sexual dalliances in the past, and at the time, he had thought himself well enough satisfied. Romantic love had been something he had dismissed out of hand, hardly believing it existed. Love for or with a woman had been something that simply did not feature in his thoughts. Until Maddison.

Maddison had changed everything, turned his life upside down. She had always been special. From the first, as his father’s prisoner, she had elicited feelings he could hardly credit owning. The love he had discovered within him had been a secret torment, eating away at him, even after their marriage. He had resigned himself to never winning her affection, let alone her love.

But now, the woman he adored, who had sworn to hate him, was unashamedly offering him her body, begging for him to do all the things to her he had been secretly dreaming of for so long. Inexperienced as she was, she was taking him to heights of physical passion that shook the foundations of his world. The feeling of being home at last, of being right where he belonged, was as dizzying as it was fulfilling. He wanted it to last forever.

Their intimacy encouraged him to unburden his heart to her. “Maddy, I want tae tell ye somethin’.”

“Tell me,” she said softly, moving slowly upon him, her inner muscles gripping him tantalizingly.

With a groan, willfully delaying his gratification, he said, “Well, after me faither died, I found a letter, from me faither tae Rollo. I saw it first.” He buried his face in Maddison’s breasts as he pulled out of her, then thrust into her heat again, burying himself deeply inside her, so that she fell against him and moaned against his lips.

“Me faither was obsessed with destroyin’ yer clan. He was betrothed tae yer maither once, but she fell in love with yer faither and ran away with him. Me faither never forgave her. In the letter, he said he wanted Rollo tae carry on his work of destruction after his death. I could nae stand the thought of ye being in danger, nor yer family. The only way tae protect ye was tae have ye close.”

“And the only way ye could have me close was tae marry me,” she murmured, looking in his eyes as again, she rose up and then back down upon his shaft. She was moving faster now, her velvety interior yielding to him yet at the same time holding him tightly, sending waves of bliss rushing through him with every motion.

“Right,” he muttered, unable to resist the urge to quicken his thrusts to match hers, while savoring the way her breasts were bouncing against his face. “And I kent ye’d never agree tae wed me. So, I went tae see the King.”

They were both panting hard now and hanging on to each other as if for dear life, kissing, sucking, biting any naked flesh they could find as they labored together in search of blissful release. Odhrán relished the thought that just as she was bringing him to the peak of ecstasy, he was doing the same to her. That sent him over the edge, and he gave in to his primal need for her.

“Och, God, Odhrán, Odhrán!” she cried out frantically as he groaned and stiffened inside her, his senses overwhelmed. They came together in a great, shuddering rush, clinging to each other.

“Maddy, me Maddy!” Odhrán could not help crying out in his frenzy, his hands tangling in her glorious hair as she fell against him, spent.

They lay together, covered in sweat, regaining their breath. To Odhrán, the room seemed to spin around them, and the air shimmered and danced. His body was completely sated. With Maddison, he had gained the pinnacle of physical satisfaction which he knew nothing could ever equal. He realized that he finally understood what it meant to make love to someone with your heart, your body, and your soul.

God, please, let me have this one thing. Let her nae be taken from me.

 

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Prologue

1585, The Western Highlands, Scotland
The dungeons, Lennox Castle

Odhrán, son of Murphy, Laird Lennox, ran down the stairs into the chilly, malodorous dungeons of his father’s castle. At the bottom, he slowly walked to where he could position himself to see through the metal grill in the door of the first cell on the right. Then, he paused for several moments, just looking at the prisoner inside.

The sight of her made his heart stop. For though she looked tired and miserable, with her long dark hair, large dark eyes, and porcelain skin, Maddison Kincaid was without a doubt the most beautiful woman he had ever seen.

As he allowed his eyes to dwell on her, Odhrán was startled to hear the door above him open and someone come down the stairs. Scared it might be his father, he held his breath as he scrambled for an explanation as to why he was there. He only breathed again when he saw his best friend, the war leader Liam MacTavish, appear around the bend in the stairs.

Liam paused when he saw Odhrán standing and looking up at him, then he ran down the remaining steps as Odhrán came to meet him.

“Odhrán, what are ye doin’ here again?” Liam asked as the pair smiled and slapped each other’s backs in a hearty greeting.

“Naethin’ much,” Odhrán replied, feeling a little embarrassed to have been caught. “Just checkin’ on the prisoner.”

Liam glanced over at the cell containing Maddison and laughed. “I ken ye’ve been down here twice today already. I’ve seen ye. Checkin’ on the prisoner quite often, are ye nae? Anyone would think ye’re sweet on the lassie,” he said teasingly.

Knowing his cheeks were flushing a little, for Liam had hit the nail on the head, Odhrán laughed too and punched his friend on the arm affectionately. He did not mind Liam knowing the truth, for he knew all his secrets were safe with him.

“I’m just bringin’ her this book tae read,” he told Liam, lowering his voice and showing it to him. “The hours pass slowly fer her in here, so I bring her books tae occupy her mind.”

“Well, I’ll nae be the one tae say ye’re goin’ soft,” Liam replied laughingly, automatically lowering his voice to a mere whisper as well. He glanced at the book and nodded. “She’s a nice lassie. ’Tis a right shame yer faither hates her family and her clan so much that he would kill her parents and braither like that and then keep her locked up here.” He shook his head, the harsh planes of his face softening as he glanced at the cell door.

“Aye, tae tell the truth, Liam, I dinnae ken how I’ve managed tae persuade him tae keep her alive this long. There’s nae a day that passes when he doesnae say he wants tae kill her. I wish I kent why he hates her family so much and could get him tae stop this feud and let her go. I cannae see any real reason fer it. I mean, what have the Kincaids done tae hurt us? Naethin’. ’Tis another of Faither’s obsessions, I suppose.”

“Aye, ’tis a mystery all right,” Liam agreed. “Ye ken what he’s like, he holds a grudge, and once he’s set on somethin’, he’s like dog with a bone. He’ll nae leave off until he’s got what he wants, and that seems tae mean wipin’ out the Kincaid family and the whole clan. Mayhap we’ll never find out the truth behind the feud but at least ye’ve been able tae string him along thus far by tellin’ him it makes more sense tae keep her alive and use her fer a deal with her braithers than kill her outright.”

Odhrán nodded. “The trouble is, I dinnae ken how long I can keep it up. I’m afeared fer her life every day, Liam,” he confessed to his friend, drawing a little closer to him and lowering his voice even further. “She doesnae ken who I really am. She thinks I’m just a servant of the laird. If she finds out I’m the son of the man who murdered her family and imprisoned her, she’ll never forgive me fer it,” he confided in Liam. “Especially nae when she realizes how I’ve been lyin’ tae her all this time.”

“Aye, I see what ye mean. But what ye’re doin’ is very risky. If yer faither finds out what ye’ve been up tae, he’ll likely slit yer throat as well as hers. If ye go against him, he willnae care if ye’re his only son. Ye havetae think of yerself. Why must ye come down here tae see her so often?”

“I feel sorry for her, and I wantae dae everythin’ I can tae make her incarceration bearable.” He did not add that simply laying eyes on the girl for one second after her kidnapping had been enough for him to fall for her, nor that he could not go a day without seeing her.

“Well, take me advice, Odhrán, dinnae be so careless as tae stand here gawking at her. If someone sees ye and tells yer faither, ye ken he’ll be furious. He’ll likely use it as an excuse tae give the lairdship tae that bastard cousin of yers, Rollo,” Liam warned him kindly.

Odhrán scowled on hearing the loathsome name. “Dinnae mention that dog tae me. He’s the bane of me life. Faither’s been on and on at me tae find a wife and get him some grandbairns, but ye ken I’ve nae wish tae marry just now. ’Tis true, nae a day goes by that he doesnae bang on about who’d make the better heir. His obsession with grandbairns and continuin’ the Lennox legacy makes him prefer Rollo because he is wed and already has a clutch of bairns tae show fer it. I’m right sick of it,” he complained, bile rising in his throat.

“I ken, and I feel bad fer ye. Rollo’s a right smug bastard, always suckin’ up tae him, tae be sure. I cannae stand him, and neither can most of the men. Besides, ’tis nae natural fer a faither tae treat his only son like that, in me opinion. But that only means ye have tae be extra careful about the laird findin’ ye down here so often, givin’ the lassie books, and so on.”

“Aye, I ken, me friend. I thank ye fer yer warnin’. Mayhap Rollo will nae live long enough tae inherit the lairdship that’s mine by rights, eh?” Odhrán said, with the usual tension he felt when thinking of his father and cousin gripping him. It always gave him a queasy feeling, as well as a feeling that time was somehow running out for him. He wished he dared tell Liam about his deepest thoughts, not just about getting rid of Rollo, but of his father too, permanently. He tried to push the unease aside and focus on the moment. “Anyway, I’m sure ye have plenty tae keep ye busy, me friend, so ye can push off. I’ll meet ye and yer braither fer a drink later on, eh?” he told Liam with a shove.

“All right, I’ll meet ye in the Blue Boar after dinner. But mark me words, Odhrán,” Liam said earnestly. “Be careful. Next time, it might nae be me comin’ down those stairs.” He sprang back up the steps on his powerful legs, and Odhrán was left alone. His heart in his mouth, he approached Maddison’s cell.

“Maddison, ’tis me,” he called softly. A pale ghost got up from the bed of straw where she had been sitting. She came up to the grill and regarded him with her big dark eyes.

“Hello. ’Tis good tae see a friendly face around here,” Maddison told him in her lilting voice.

“I’ve brought ye another book,” he said, passing it through the grill to her. ’Tis an adventure. It may help tae pass the time.”

“Thank ye,” she replied, taking the book from his hand and giving him a wan smile that made his heart skip in his chest. “I’ve almost finished the last one, so this will come in handy. ’Tis very boring and lonely in here.”

The sadness in her eyes as she spoke moved Odhrán deeply. He wanted nothing more than to tear down the cell door, grab her by the waist, and ride like hell with her back to her home and her brothers, anything to make her happy.

“How are ye bearin’ up?” he asked, leaning against the door to get a better view of her and the cell. To his relief, it looked fairly clean, and she had blankets. It was no more than Odhrán expected because he had been bribing the dungeon master for his cooperation and silence.

“As well as can be expected, I suppose. But the help ye give me is a great comfort, and yer company too,” she told him.

“I’m glad tae be of some help tae ye,” he said, wishing he could do far more.

“I dinnae wish tae get ye intae trouble by askin’ this, but can ye tell me if there’s been any sign of me braithers searchin’ fer me?” she suddenly asked, her face creased with anxiety. “’Tis been almost a year now since I’ve been locked up here, and I’ve had nae word of them.”

Odhrán’s heart dropped. Of course, he well knew that her brothers, Diarmaid and Ciarán, both formidable warriors, had been scouring the land far and wide for any sign of her for the last year. He guessed they had already worked out where she might be, and who had murdered their parents and brother before kidnapping her. But he was also sure his father was right: without proof they would not dare act.

Even if somehow they found proof, they would need help to attack the Lennox castle, for it held the largest clan army in the West Highlands. But he could not tell Maddison any of that, however much he wanted to comfort her. His father would kill the both of them if he did and he got wind of it.

“I dinnae ken, I’m sorry. I’m just a servant around here,” he lied, hating himself for doing it.

“I ken. I shouldnae have asked ye,” she apologized. Then, he saw a spark in her eyes, and she clenched her small fists at her sides. “Ach, there’s nae one I hate more than Murphy and his son, fer what they’ve done tae me and me family. Every day, I pray me braithers will find me and put an end to those two monsters,” she murmured.

“Aye, that’s understandable,” Odhrán replied, feeling like his poor heart was breaking for her, and for himself. He was unused to feeling so much emotion for anybody. There had never really been anyone for him to care about that much. His mother had died shortly after giving birth to him, and the only affection he remembered receiving was from his old nursemaid, now long dead.

Nevertheless, it physically hurt him to know Maddison was suffering. He so wanted her to know how much he cared about her, but the whole situation was impossible, thus he had no choice but to keep it all secret from her. And from everyone, except perhaps Liam and his brother Tadhg.

But that did not mean he did not think about it, and about how much better his life would be without his father and Rollo in it.

But even if I was Laird Lennox, it would nae change a thing. If Maddison ever learns who I really am, she’ll nae forgive me. She’ll never be me wife, however much I want her.

Chapter One

1586, Lennox Castle

Odhrán took his place as Laird Lennox at the head of the council table feeling deeply uneasy. He was well aware that only five months after the death of his father and the lairdship passing to him, he was still on thin ice. His position as laird was by no means certain. And as always, he had his father to thank for it.

“Well, let’s get down tae business, gentlemen,” he said, making sure to sound strong and determined as his eyes swept around the table, where his councilmen were taking their seats. “There’s nae time tae waste.”

“Aye, me laird,” intoned Angus Bowman, who had been his father’s chief advisor for many years, shuffling the papers in front of him. “The most important matter is that of yer faither’s will.”

“Aye, I ken it,” Odhrán said with a sharp nod, exchanging a look with Liam and Tadhg that expressed his impatience and their sympathy. “Get on with it then.”

Angus cleared his throat and spoke up clearly. “As ye ken, the old laird left a will saying that if ye dinnae have a wife and a bairn on the way a year after taking the lairdship, the council should gather and decide if ’tis better fer yerself tae continue as laird or fer Rollo tae take over.” The old advisor paused to look at Odhrán before he went on, “’Tis already five months since ye became laird, and there’s nae sight of a wife, let alone a bairn.”

Angus’s words drew a collective muttering from the councilmen, though Odhrán found it impossible to tell whether they were happy or not about the terms of the will. He’d been fuming ever since he’d first heard of them. Even in death, it seemed his father continued to torment him.

“So, what d’ye all think on this?” Odhrán asked through gritted teeth. Once more there were hushed murmurings around the table.

“Frankly, me laird, there’s nae many of us are happy about it,” piped up Renly Cooper, who dealt with the clan’s finances. “But the will is a legally binding document, and ye can be sure Rollo kens about it. Yer faither kept his counsel, so even if we destroy it, he’ll challenge yer right tae inherit.”

“Aye, none of us can see a way tae prevent him legally takin’ over the lairdship except by ye marryin’ and trying tae get a bairn started in the next six months,” Angus added, sounding surprisingly downcast.

“Wheesht!” Liam put in with some impatience. “He’ll nae be able tae inherit if he’s dead. If we dinnae want him as our laird, why nae just kill him?”

“I’d be happy tae dae the job,” Tadhg said, nodding vigorously. “The man’s a snake. He’s nae even a good master tae his own folks. All the headway we’ve made as a clan in improving relations with our neighbors over the last few months with Odhrán here at our head will be lost if he takes over.”

“Aye, even his wife doesnae much like him, the poor lass, so I hear,” Renley said, eliciting nods and words of agreement from his fellows.

“Ach, I wish it was that easy, me friends,” Angus told them , shaking his head morosely. “But ’tis a legal matter. If we just go and kill him, I reckon everyone will ken who’s responsible at once. He has many allies. It could mean war.”

“I’m touched by yer support,” Odhrán said, meaning it. He had not really expected to learn so much about how they all felt about the matter. It was encouraging that they liked his style of lairdship, which was so different to that of his father.

However, there was more than one important thing the council was so far unaware of, bar Liam and Tadhg. He did not want to marry. Or, more specifically, he did not want to marry just anyone. In fact, the only woman he wanted to marry hated his guts. The only solace for his broken heart in the whole mess was knowing that Maddison was back home safe with her family again, following a violent attack on Lennox Castle by her brothers and their allies that had ended in his father’s death.

And there was more than just the will. When going through his father’s desk, which now belonged to him, he had found a letter from his father addressed to Rollo. Furious, he had torn it open and read it.

If ye become Laird Lennox, ye must finish what I started and kill all the surviving Kincaids. Me spirit willnae rest until ye have wiped out the whole family and clan tae the last man.

Odhrán had almost choked on his hatred for his father as well as his fear for Maddison on reading those words. He knew Rollo would enjoy carrying out his father’s wishes should he ever become Laird Lennox. But Maddison’s life and her clan had to be protected at all costs against this new threat. Immediately, he had thought the best way to do that would be to have her close, ideally as his wife. But he had known with a sinking heart that it was out of the question. She, her family, and the whole Kincaid clan despised him. They would never countenance such a union.

But though he hated his father and Rollo as much as Maddison and the Kincaids hated him, he was still his father’s son. He had never been one to give up easily, however bad the odds seemed.

There must be a way.

Now, standing before the council and hearing what they had to say, he was encouraged to put forth the plan that had been slowly forming in the deep, dark depths of his mind for some time.

“There’s only one lass I’ll consider as a wife,” he said in a tone that, he hoped, brooked no argument.

The councilmen’s ears pricked up, and they all looked at him with a mixture of curiosity and expectancy.

“Oh? And who might that be, me laird?” Angus asked.

“Maddison Kincaid.”

He might as well have thrown a fox into the henhouse for all the furor that caused. Only Liam and Tadhg appeared unsurprised.

Angus spluttered out, “I’m sorry, me laird, but did ye say Maddison Kincaid?”

“Ye ken I did,” Odhrán confirmed with a nod, creating fresh turmoil amongst his advisors.

“The lass yer faither kept locked up here fer a year until her braithers attacked us and killed him and took her away?”

“Aye, the very same.”

“May we ask why her in particular, me laird?” Renley asked.

“It’ll put an end tae this feud me faither had with the Kincaids once and fer all. It’ll be of benefit tae all of us if it’s done with,” Odhrán explained, growing bolder as they seemed receptive to his idea.

“Well, fair enough,” Renley said after a few moments of quiet discussion among the councilmen. “If that’s the lass ye want, me laird, then we’ll back ye. But d’ye nae think it likely her braithers will nae countenance such a match, even if she agrees tae it? Which I dinnae think there’s much chance she will. Nae counting that they killed yer faither…”

“If the laird’s willin’ tae put that aside fer the sake of improvin’ relations between our two clans then we should support him. After all, the old laird was nae much of a faither tae him, and he didnae exactly act in ways tae improve our relations with other clans either,” Angus pointed out. “That wasnae good fer any of us.”

Once again, Odhrán was touched by the councilmen’s understanding of the difficulties he had faced when his father had been alive. The old man had been a bully and a brute. The only trouble was, they were lacking a vital piece of information that may have radically changed any decision they might choose to make about their future laird.

The council did not know that the Kincaids had not killed the old laird. It had been Odhrán himself who had ended his father’s life, all to protect Maddison. Odhrán was that most wretched of creatures—a parricide. It was such a horrible thing to have done that, however bad his father had been, he could not even reconcile it with himself, let alone tell anyone else the truth about what he had done. All but his best friends, that was. Thus, deep down, he knew he’d never be at peace with what he had done.

“True enough. But other clan feuds that have lasted decades have been ended by such marriages, and both clans have prospered,” Renly said. “There’s nae harm in tryin’ if that’s what the young laird wants.” Murmurs of agreement came from the others.

“So, d’ye have any ideas how we could go about securin’ their agreement, then, me laird?” Tadhg asked, looking at Odhrán with a hint of encouragement in his eyes. He and his brother already knew a little of Odhrán’s thoughts and plans on this subject.

“Aye, as it happens, I dae,” Odhrán replied, flashing a grateful glance at Tadhg.

“Well, let’s hear it then, me laird,” Renley said. “If there’s any chance of it workin’, we’ll back ye all the way rather than have Rollo as our laird.”

“All right,” Odhrán replied, optimism welling up inside him and replacing the guilt he felt as the man who had killed his father. “So, here’s me plan.”

 

“What dae ye think?” Gilchrist asked, holding Kyven’s gaze with his own. The way her hand was running up and down his arm, a comforting touch, was making such warmth spread through him that he surprisingly had no wish to return to the room where his brothers were.

Aye, I’ll stay with ye, Kyven.

“Live out that fantasy of yers,” he suggested. “Paint me.”

In the light of the candle he carried, he saw her eyes flicker. There was a glint of both mischief and happiness in them. She nodded.

He shifted her hand from his arm to his palm, then towed her through the room.

“What about yer brothers?” she asked after a minute of intimate silence.

“They’ll understand.” Gilchrist knew well enough that neither of his brothers would object to them not returning to the room. He could talk more tomorrow with them, but for now, it was late. He wanted to be alone with Kyven.

He led her through the castle, down familiar corridors that he had not walked in years. Little had changed. Far in the east wing, he brought the two of them to a stop outside a large cabinet. He placed the candle on a ledge nearby and opened the door.

“What’s this?” Kyven asked, doing her best to peer around his arm. “Paints!” She hurried around him and stepped into the cabinet.

It was quite large, big enough for a variety of shelves to be stacked on three walls and just big enough to allow Kyven to set a canvas she found on one of those shelves and stand back, peering in the candlelight.

“I used tae hide from the world in here when I was little,” Gilchrist confessed. She turned her head around him, a mischievous smile spreading across her lips. “I’d quite like tae hide again.”

He took the candle from the ledge nearby and carried it into the cabinet, shutting the door behind them. She laughed and hurried to pull out the paints.

“How dae ye want me?” he asked.

“Dinnae ask me tempting questions like that.”

“I tempt ye?” Gilchrist teased her, walking toward her.

Kyven bit her lip, blushing. She had blushed the night before too, when they had made love in the bath. Just the memory of it, the way her back had arched as he had entered her, or the way her hands had gripped his shoulders, made his body hard now for the want of her again. Would she moan his name in this cabinet? Would she cry out? Or maybe she would bite her lip again in the effort to hold in that sound and not be discovered?

“I want ye…” She turned to face him. The words made a pleasant shudder start deep within his abdomen. “Over here.” She took his arms and playfully steered him across the room until he was sat on a barrel in the corner. “Sit there and look…”

Gilchrist raised his eyebrows questioningly. She smiled a little more, making him wonder why he had agreed to painting at all when they could be doing something else.

“Just look at me,” Kyven pleaded, her voice turning a pleasant lighter tone.

She turned back to her canvas, finished preparing the paints, but didn’t start working on the canvas. She turned back again, yellow light falling on half of her face.

“Would ye…?”

“What?” he asked, encouraging her on.

“Would ye let me paint ye without clothes?” she asked.

Gilchrist chuckled, at first believing she was in jest, but she just continued to stare at him. His laughter faded. The idea seemed mad and wild, then he remembered where they were. Tucked away in this corner of the castle in a cabinet, no one would ever find them this late in the evening. They were alone, in their own world.

He untied the jerkin, slowly unfurling it from his shoulders. The shirt followed, as he dropped it to the ground, then he stood and pulled off his boots. Gilchrist was all too aware of the anticipation in the air and the way she stared at him, her hands tightening around the paint brushes.

He held her gaze as he reached for his trews and pulled them down next. Without a word, he sat down on the barrel again and waited for her to begin.

Kyven grinned, then turned to the canvas. He couldn’t see what she was drawing, but he saw her work fast. At all times, he watched her eyes and hand movements, the way her brushes darted fast across the canvas, and how her gaze drank in the sight of him. When she gazed at his chest and length, she bit her lip again, in that habit of hers. He nearly lost all restraint at that moment, tempted to tell her to abandon the paints and go warm him up.

“How can ye be hard now?” she said eventually in a playful whisper. “I am nae touching ye.”

“Ye are painting me,” he reminded her. “And we were alone.” It was enough to make his imagination run mad. She giggled lightly, her gaze most particularly on his length now. She seemed to be slowing in her painting. “How does it look?”

“It’s a good start. Tae get it right though I’ll need many hours.”

“More hours of being naked with ye, Kyven? As ye wish.”

She trembled, though it was clearly with an excited pleasure. She placed the paints down on the edge of a shelf nearby and moved toward him. He sat tall, feeling the tension in the air as she came so close.

“Next time, dae me a favor.” She laid a hand on his arm. “Move yer arm like this.” She adjusted his arm to the side, so his hand brushed the skirt of her gown. He toyed his fingers in the edge of that skirt, pulling her a little toward him. “That was nae the idea,” she said with a laugh.

“Ye come toward me and expect me tae behave?” He challenged her.

“I havenae finished yer portrait.”

“Ye can finish it another time.” He tugged on her skirt again, moving it aside now, so he could feel her bare leg. He reached out, brushing her temptingly down the inside of her thigh. Her lips parted and a breathy sound escaped her.

“Ye tempt me,” she whispered. “Ye always did. Ye seem tae have…” Her eyelids fluttered closed as he moved toward her. He placed a single kiss on the base of her throat, listening as she gasped. He moved his hand higher up her thigh again, getting closer and closer to her bare hip beneath the covering of her gown. “Power over me.”

“Power, eh?” Gilchrist murmured against her skin. His kisses traveled down her collarbone and toward the top of her gown. “Shall we test that power?”

Kyven didn’t say no. Another breathy moan escaped her as his fingers toyed outside of her. He passed them over her center, not quite touching her and indulging in pleasure, but teasing her with what they could do.

He stood up off the barrel, moving his hand to her hip beneath the gown. “Sit on the barrel,” he urged.

Her hands gripped his bare arms as they moved around one another. He lifted her to sit on the barrel as she was a little short to sit there herself. She bit her lip again. He bent over her, urging her to lean back against the wall behind her head. The two of them were panting now with the anticipation of what was to come.

Taking hold of her skirt, Gilchrist drew it up her legs and toward her hips, revealing her bare legs. One of those legs shuddered as he raised it up over his hip.

“Nae a word this time,” he whispered to her. “Nae a word, nae a sound, if we dinnae want tae be discovered.”

She nodded, her hands reaching out behind her. One palm gripped to a shelf nearby as the other flattened to the wall over her head.

It was surely forbidden, what they were doing now. Not just making love outside of the bounds of marriage but tucked away together in this cupboard. The illicitness of the moment somehow made Gilchrist harder still, determined to take her, but not yet. First, he wanted to watch her in her pleasure, to drink in the sight of her.

He moved his fingers from his hips to her center. With one hand, he held the inside of her thigh out, creating space for his body. His fingers moved down the length of her opening, teasing her, brushing back and forth. Her lips parted. Clearly, she wanted to moan, but when he reminded her not to, playfully dominating her, by pretending to glare at her, she clamped her lips together again, fighting a perfect smile.

He slid his fingers down a little, overwhelmed by the feeling of how wet she was for him already. Her leg shook beneath his grasp too. He slipped his fingers inside of her, his own lips parting at the sensation of how warm and wet she was. Her head tilted back against the wall, her eyes closing though her lips opened to make a perfect ‘o’ shape. No sound escaped her though.

“Look at me,” Gilchrist took a possessive hold on her chin and pierced her eyes, which only made his shaft get harder.

He decided to make it more difficult for Kyven, moving his fingers in and out of her at a faster pace now, seeing if she could stay quiet. Her hand gripped tighter to the shelf and her back arched in this strange but exciting position on the barrel, her eyes not leaving his. When he changed the angle of his hand, moving so his thumb was over that bud of nerves above her center, brushing it just once, their connected gaze got more intense and he moved his thumb again, firmer this time.

Those breathy sounds were impossible for her staunch. His length grew harder for wanting her and those noises.

“Ah…”

“Nae a sound,” he ordered, then bent over her, moving his lips toward her core. She shuddered even more, in clear excitement about what he was going to do. He kept his fingers inside of her, moving in and out, reaching deep, as his tongue stayed outside, pleasuring her. She lost the battle, starting to make sounds now. He held her thigh down harder, keeping her legs apart, basking in the warmth of those noises she made.

She was on the edge; he could feel it. Her head moved from side to side and her body writhed beneath his touch as much as it possibly could. He lifted his body from her, not quite ready yet to give her a release.

“Nay, why?” Her eyes opened, and she looked at him pleadingly, but he shook his head. He was in control of their pleasure, and what they were sharing was certainly not going to end just yet.

“Patience, my love,” he took hold of her hips and quickly lowered her back to the floor.

“Turn around,” he ordered. She did so, leaning her legs against the barrel as her hands planted themselves flat to the wall in front of her. “Brace yerself.”

She parted her legs, just a little, but enough to create a space for him. He reached beneath that skirt again, taking hold of her hips and urging her to lean forward. When her rear was on show, basked in the light of the candle, he bent down and playfully nipped the curve of her butt. She gasped in surprise, then shuddered, clearly still fighting that battle to stay quiet. When she was dithering, he moved his length toward her, nudging her entrance, teasing them both with the sensation.

Her back arched for wanting him. Gilchrist still held himself back, watching her and drinking in the sight. He had imagined them making love in so many ways, but each time they did, it was more exciting than he had thought possible.

He slid himself completely inside of her, watching as her hands turned white against the wall. She rocked back into him, clearly wanting more of this feeling.

He lost his control and suddenly entered her fast, repeatedly. The tempo he built up was so quick and full of need, he could feel her bracing herself indeed against that barrel, absorbing each thrust of his hips toward her.

Gilchrist tilted his head back, the better to watch all of her as he entered her, and to watch exactly what they were doing. Her body was always ready for him, wanting him, as he wanted her.

He ran his hands over her rear, squeezing a little, then gripping to her hips so he could move faster still. Kyven gasped all the more, now not knowing what to do with her hands. Sometimes she reached back with one toward him, gripping to his arm, other times it went to the barrel beneath her, then back to the wall. She was frantic in her pleasure, and the sounds could not be stopped now. They fell from her lips, an intoxicating sound that drove him mad.

He was coming close now, nearing his end. He dreamed of finishing inside of her, of the two of them reaching that climax together, but he could not do it. A small voice in the back of his mind told him the danger of it – he could not get the Lady of the McDougall’s with child when he might not be permitted to marry her. He would never do that to her.

Gilchrist held his pleasure back as much as he possibly could, fighting the overwhelming sensations, determined to see her reach her edge. Then it happened. She bucked back against him, breathy sounds escaping her as her hands planted flat to the wall in front of her.

“Oh…” She moaned as her body tightened around their connection.

It was tipping him toward his edge fast, the feeling of her tightening. He had to pull himself out. He only had to pump his length twice before he finished, releasing against the side of the barrel, catching her leg too with his seed as their grunts and groans filled the air.

They were both still breathing heavily, holding onto one another as they came down from their high.

“So much fer being quiet,” she said eventually, prompting him to laugh. He turned her around and sat her on the barrel again when her legs shook, unable to keep her standing.

“I love ye,” he said without hesitation, moving to capture her lips. She embraced him tight, wrapping her arms around his shoulders as he stood between the gap of her legs. “Ye dinnae mind, dae ye? Being here, I mean. In the clan of Gregor, considering…”

What me father did.

He could not bring himself to say the words. He was still basking in the pleasure of what they had shared.

“I am happy tae be here,” she whispered against his chest. “Clan Gregor and ye are one in me mind now. I dinnae think I have ever felt so safe, anywhere before.”

Gilchrist held her tight, without any intention of letting her go to somewhere she didn’t feel safe again.

 

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Prologue

Inverlochy, Scotland, 1757

“Where are ye?” Michael whispered into the air. The cold breeze pulled at his dark hair, as if the wind itself was made of strong fingers trying to pull him back. However, nothing would stop him from marching on to reach the very spot where he met Elisa every Sunday, without fail.

Between the two great hills that dominated the landscape like sleeping giants, he jumped onto a vast boulder, looking down at the valley and toward the nearest village. From this high up, he could see the blackened heather competing with the rough grass of the Highland hills. Everything shivered in the breeze.

It was an ominous sign.

Michael had heard such things from his eldest brother for years now. Laird Braydon, as most addressed him, was superstitious when away from the prying eyes of his clan’s men.

‘Aye, a strong wind bodes ill, Michael. Ye be warned of it. It means there’s something stirring in the air. Somethin’ coming for us all.’

Michael was not superstitious though. He shrugged the thought off, his tall figure dropping down from the vast grey stone as he hurried toward the village to meet his love, Elisa.

Nae long now and we will be wed.

He could practically hear the music that would play at their wedding.

A boot scuffed a stone.

Michael whipped his head around, coming to a sudden halt in the heather. Someone was there. No wind could brush a stone like leather. No, there had to be someone there, someone who was now doing their best to hide and avoid discovery. All Michael could see were the Douglas firs, the crests of the great hills and the still-quivering heather.

I willnae doubt me senses. Someone is there.

Michael’s brothers, Braydon and Tynan, had taught him well. Not only how to hunt a stag in the woods, but also how to turn a man following you from predator into prey. How to behave to raise the least suspicion.

Brushing his dark hair away from his forehead, he wrapped the black and navy tartan strip he wore tighter around his shoulders and walked on, as if he didn’t have a care in the world. Under the cover of the tartan, his hand reached for the dirk in his belt, clutching it firmly between his fingers. He trained his ears to listen beyond the whistling of wind.

There came a scuff again, but there were two sets of footsteps now.

Michael whipped around, pulling the dirk clear of his belt and brandishing it in the air, but before Michael could do anything with the dirk, he found his wrist clamped in a thick fist, and a sharp knee was driven into his gut.

“Oof!” He crumpled forward in pain, listening as the dirk he’d been clutching fell to the ground with a dull thud. He was pushed back, his vision a blur of darkened shadows, hair tangled in the wind, masked faces, then all fell still as he was thrown against the nearest tree trunk . The fir only shook a little when Michael’s weight was thrown against it. The branches quivered, as if the attack disturbed it no more than the wind.

“What the – in the name of the wee man!” Michael roared, thrusting back at his attacker, hands scrambling as he reached for another weapon. “Are ye trying tae kill me ye great –”

He could not say anymore as an arm was thrust across his neck. Pressed against that tree, it was as if his neck was nothing more than a twig to his attacker, something that could be snapped at any moment.

“Nae a word, Michael Gregor,” a familiar voice rasped out.

Michael looked at the two men before him. The one pinning him to the tree had only his eyes on show, the rest of his face hidden behind dark red and green tartan. Yet the grey eyes were as familiar as the voice.

“Dinnae bother hiding yer face from me, Shay.” Michael managed the words despite the pressure on his throat.

Shay tore the tartan from his face, as did his accomplice, who stood a short distance behind him.

Shay Lamont, son of a neighboring laird, was almost as pale as the snow on the tops of the hills. His blond hair was more white than yellow too. It was almost like looking into a man made of ice, his gaze and touch as cold as Michael feared it would be.

Behind him stood Shay’s dearest friend. Larry, a short but burly fellow, stocky in build with a shock of dark red hair, was now nursing a blackened eye and a bruised jaw that he rubbed feebly as he took off his tartan strip.

“How’s the eye?” Michael asked Larry, goading what he already knew to be a dangerous situation.

“Enough!” Shay spat, adjusting his grasp and flattening Michael to the tree even more, risking to break Michael’s neck. He raised a dirk at the same time, pressing the tip of the ornate blade to Michael’s chin. “Another move, and ye die, Gregor. Ye understand? Ye die!” he hissed angrily.

This time, Michael chose not to goad him. He refused to flinch though and didn’t so much as blink. He merely stared back at Shay, waiting for what would happen next.

“Ye and yer brothers may have got the jump on us once, but it willnae happen again,” Shay muttered darkly.

Michael couldn’t resist. The voice in his head was determined to say his piece.

“Is one attack nae enough fer ye? Ye already threatened me once about going tae meet Elisa. How did that work out fer ye, eh?” Michael’s eyes darted between the two men. Shay’s bruises were not so easy to spot, but they were there. One milky green one on his neck was showing against the pallor of his skin.

“She willnae marry the youngest brother of a laird,” Shay spat once again. “She needs an heir. Ye hear me, Michael? Ye arenae good enough tae lick her boots.”

“She seems tae think differently.”

“Ye are just a boy, and she is just a girl. In time, she will see things differently. She’ll want the heir tae a lairdship. She will want… a man.”

Michael said nothing. He glowered back at Shay, trying to think of a way out of this situation. Even if he fought Shay off, Larry had to be dealt with too. He was not fooled by the miserable way in which Larry kept touching the bruises on his face. His stocky build counted for a lot in a fight and the long thin scar running from his chin to his collarbone showed he was not afraid to risk injury in order to win.

“This is yer final warning, Gregor,” Shay muttered again. “Ye willnae be seeing Elisa anymore.”

“We are tae be married,” Michael reminded him. “Ye tried this before yet ye dinnae remember the punishment me brothers and I dealt out tae ye, dae ye? Dinnae get involved in our business, Shay. Go back tae yer own clan.”

The dirk was raised. Pressed deep into Michael’s cheek, he felt the prick on his skin and imagined the bead of blood pooling at the blade. Michael’s stomach clenched tightly. At that moment, Shay could quite easily murder him. It would be all too easy.

“I’ll only return when I take Elisa with me,” Shay said warningly.

Michael blinked for the first time, an image of Elisa appearing in his mind. Mild in manner, delicate, fair golden hair and bright green eyes, Elisa could ensnare nearly any man she met, but she had chosen Michael. She wished to marry him as he did her. They didn’t care if they were still young, that Michael hadn’t yet seen his twenty-first summer, and she hadn’t seen her eighteenth. They were determined to wed regardless, and the betrothal had been blessed both by Laird Braydon and Elisa’s father.

“She isnae yers tae take,” Michael took on a darker tone. “Go home, Shay. Like the white lamb ye are, go home with yer tail between yer legs.”

Rage enveloped Shay’s face. The lines around his eyes and neck became taut, his grey eyes now nearly red.

“Ye think a betrothal is enough tae stop me? Or a few bruises dealt by yer weakling brothers?” He spat on Michael, but still Michael refused to flinch. “A pathetic excuse fer a laird yer brother, barely more than a child himself.”

Michael’s body tightened now. His hand down at his side balled into a fist.

“Or Tynan, eh? What a man is he? What a pathetic creature, responsible for his own father’s death. It’s a wonder he didnae kill himself years ago with the guilt.”

“Ye bast –” Michael tried to rage against him. His brothers, two of the best men born on this planet, did not deserve such insults. He attempted to push Shay off him, but he pressed that dirk harder into his face now. Larry also stepped closer beside him, revealing a long thin rapier he had kept hidden behind his back up until now.

“Dinnae move,” Shay warned once more. “There’s something ye’ll want tae ken, Michael Gregor. Something ye’ll wish tae hear from me.” He jerked his head in silent instruction at Larry who stepped forward once more, reaching into the pocket of his tunic before producing something.

Michael strained to see what it was but was dealt with another blow to his stomach by Shay.

Winded, he buckled forward onto his knees, landing on a great stone which bruised his leg so badly, he had no chance of standing. Gasping for breath, he looked up, peering through his strands of dark hair to see Shay standing over him. Shay still grasped the dirk threateningly, but in his other palm, he now held something. He raised it high then let it drop to the ground in front of Michael. It drifted like a feather, strands falling apart in the wind. The golden wisps shimmered in what little light bled through the clouds at all.

“Her hair,” Shay said, though Michael hardly needed to hear the words, for he’d guessed as much. “Elisa’s hair. She’s so small, is she nae? So delicate. She could be snapped like a baby bird.”

“Ye demon –”

“Nay more words.” Shay moved the dirk toward Michael once again. “Heed me warning this time. Ye willnae pay attention tae a threat against yer own life, I ken that much, so I must make another threat altogether. Ye will leave.”

Michael raised his eyebrows.

“Leave.” Shay spoke in emphasis. “Ye will leave this clan and never return. If ye so much take a step back into these borders, Elisa will die, and she willnae be the only one. Yer beloved brothers will meet their ends too.”

“Ye would never get near them. They are too well trained.”

“Ye want tae find out?” Shay asked, a malicious smirk spreading across his lips. “Elisa will be the easiest tae hurt. She will die first, but it will be easy enough tae get tae yer brothers. Tynan enjoys a drink at the tavern, fer instance. And Laird Braydon Gregor has many weaknesses of his own. I ken them all.” He stepped forward, threateningly. “One way or another, I will kill them, unless I have yer agreement.”

Nay, I cannae dae it.

Every fiber of his being screamed against the idea. This clan was Michael’s home. He loved his brothers, and it was the only life he had ever known. But looking up into Shay’s eyes, he saw the danger. Was it not rumored that Shay had already killed a man? And people claimed Shay’s own father was questioning him about a woman’s death.

“Dinnae doubt me,” Shay said, his tone now so dark it made Michael’s heartbeat thunder in his chest. “Ye will live tae regret it. All around ye will die, Michael Gregor, but ye will live. Aye, I’ll make sure of that, so ye can grieve them and mourn them, and let the guilt drive ye mad until ye throw yerself in River Lochy tae meet yer own death. It would be so easy. I could orchestrate it tae blame the McDowells, so they would face the responsibility fer yer brothers’ deaths, nae I.”

Images flashed in Michael’s mind. He saw Elisa’s smile, her bright green eyes, then he saw his brothers together, their matching dark hair and pleasant smiles. How could Michael let himself be the cause of all their deaths? He could not let it happen.

“Dae I have yer agreement?” Shay pushed the dagger toward him.

Wild ideas circled in his mind. Michael could kill Shay now just for making the threat, but what then? He would be hanged for murder, and that would destroy Braydon’s and Tynan’s lives regardless.

I have nay choice.

Reluctantly and very slowly, he offered a single nod.

“Good.” Shay backed up, grasping Larry’s arm and urging him to run away first before he followed. “Be gone by the end of the day, or Elisa willnae see the sun rise tomorrow.”

Michael still could not stand. He shifted to his haunches and stared at the retreating figures of Shay and Larry, deep in thought.

Braydon and Tynan wouldn’t let him go. If he went to them now and told them the truth, they’d insist a man like Shay could not hurt them. Yet Michael couldn’t take that chance. If he was really going to protect them, keep them and Elisa safe, then he’d have to think of another way to leave, a way that would ensure that neither Braydon nor Tynan would come looking for him again.

A plan of where to go and hide was forming fast in his mind. Shay was not the only enemy of his brother’s, for so were the McDowells. Where better to hide than in the enemy clan? Somewhere where he could shed his name and become someone new. He would no longer be Michael, but a new man, with a new Christian name. “Pray, forgive me for what I am about tae do.”

Chapter One

McDowell Castle, Scotland, 1765

Kyven stuck her head through the doorway, peering at someone she knew she should not be watching.

Captain Gilchrist was sitting in his usual chair in the library of McDowell Castle. It was surprising to find a soldier, a military leader at that, so often in this room, reading alone or in her company. It was their tradition for him to read aloud as she sat nearby, painting and drawing, but not today. On this day, she’d had much to do, and now that she was free, as the sun set, she had come to find him.

Seemingly unaware of her presence, she watched him sitting in the vast Flemish baroque chair that he always occupied, his uniform pulled tightly across his tall and broadly muscled frame. His legs were a little apart, the book resting on just one large palm.

Kyven’s mouth turned a little dry. His black hair was cropped short these days, though he had once worn it longer, and she could remember the way the ends used to tease his forehead. The stubble across his chin was growing longer too, and she wondered if that dark hair on his angular jaw was soft or sharp to the touch. The blue eyes, dark like a stormy ocean, were trained on the book, calmly moving from one word to the next.

A candle beside him kept him company and the fire that burned in the hearth gave out a soft glimmer, the only sources of orange light in the room to compete with the black sky. At this time of year, it grew dark so early, most of the day seemed black. So often had Kyven thought of Captain Gilchrist as a source of light in that darkness, despite his quiet, nearly always silent manner.

“Since when did the lady of the clan become a spy?” Captain Gilchrist asked without looking up from his book, his deep voice making something in her stomach quake.

His voice always had this effect on her. It was as if he could reach into her very soul just with his words.

“How did ye ken I was here?” she asked, stepping into the room and moving her hands to her hips.

At last, Captain Gilchrist looked up from what he was doing. He raised one dark eyebrow in her direction, not quite smiling, as he rarely smiled, though there was a lightness in his gaze.

Sometimes I feel it is only I who kens him well enough tae understand what that look means.

“It’s unusual fer ye nae tae be here,” he said quietly, returning his blue eyes to the book. “Though many wonder why we enjoy spending time here reading together.”

“It is me library,” she reminded him teasingly, moving to kneel on the hearth rug and turn her body to the fire. She extended her hands toward the flames, trying to warm her body. “Maybe people should question why ye are in me library so much.”

“Fer the books,” he said simply, turning the page.

“Sometimes people wonder if ye come fer another reason,” she continued to tease him. He raised an eyebrow again, showing what he thought of those words, though he didn’t look away from the book.

She laughed softly, trying her best to release the sudden tension in the air. She often teased him in that way, for it was what everyone said of the two of them.

Even her maid had wondered if the two of them were secret lovers as they spent so much time with one another. Kyven’s particular reply to that question had been sharp, tart, and an attempt to cover a secret hurt.

“Captain Gilchrist would nay more look at me fer a wife than he would his dog. I am simply someone tae keep him company in that library.”

Though, of course, she wished he would look at her in that way. There had been a time when she had thought he was fond of her, but that was a long time ago now. After the first couple of years of dancing around one another, Gilchrist had never made a move or even truly flirted with her. It had only ever been a jest.

“What is it, Kyven?” he whispered.

She startled, wondering if he had noticed just how much she was staring at him. It was a habit of hers, one she indulged in far too much.

He doesnae think of me in that way.

She turned her focus on the fire, watching as the yellow flames licked the wood.

“It’s just today,” she murmured with a sigh. “It’s been a busy day, going tae the mausoleum.”

“Ah.” He closed the book sharply and rubbed the brow of his forehead. “I’m sorry, Kyven. I didnae even think about what today is fer ye.”

“It doesnae matter.”

“Of course it matters.” He sighed and placed the book on the table beside him.

Turning in the chair to face her, he leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees. He came so close, her breath hitched in her throat. She wet her lips, trying her best not to think about his proximity, or how she felt a heat not just from the fire, but from him.

“How was it?” he asked, his voice soft.

“As it usually is,” she murmured. “Me father’s death… I feel the usual ache, the grief, the anger at the Gregors fer what they did tae him, although it was a long time ago now. But at least the sharpness of the pain isnae as bad as it once was.”

Gilchrist shifted in his seat. For a moment, she thought he was uneasy, but then she presumed it was just because the subject they were discussing was death.

Who could ever be easy when speaking of it?

“Hmm.” He nodded slowly. For a moment, she thought he might say more, perhaps speak of his own father. In all the time she had known him, he had never mentioned his own family. He must have had a father, but was he dead? Or was he still alive? And if so, why did Gilchrist never speak of him? “I am sorry,” he whispered to her. “I ken it is of little comfort, but it will get even easier in time. Trust me.”

Maybe his father is dead.

She was about to ask him. Was it so wrong to want to know something about Captain Gilchrist’s life after knowing him for eight years? She had first met him when she was scarcely more than a child, and he had appeared, acclaimed by the captain of their army at the time. Just a stranger, Gilchrist had come across some of his scouts on the road as they were being attacked by bandits. Stepping in and saving their lives had earned him such praise that he had been quickly enlisted in their own army and had advanced fast through the ranks to become their new captain.

That scrap of his life was all she knew of him, though she longed to know more. Yet she feared he would shut down and refuse to answer her if she asked more, as he had done in the past.

“It’s nae just that,” she said instead. “After what me family did recently, can ye blame me fer feeling a little… lost on a day like today?”

“Nae at all.” He slowly shook his head, turning his face to the fire and also staring at the flames. “Yer sister is gone though. She cannae hurt ye or anyone in this life again.”

“Aye. I ken.” Yet it was sometimes hard for Kyven to accept.

After her father had died, her uncle had come to take care of the clan. After his passing, the lairdship had been given to Kyven’s older sister, Imogen. A less loving sisterly relationship would be hard to find. Imogen had always blamed her for killing their mother in childbirth and so the women never got along.

When Imogen had become lady of the clan, she had lied about taking a husband, Elliot Sutherland. She blackmailed and manipulated him into doing her bidding by imprisoning his father, while keeping a lover by the name of Ossian Macauley. He was a foul man whose greed had been fanatical. In the end, both Ossian’s and Imogen’s greed and manipulative actions had seen them falling to the bottom of a cliff together.

A year had passed since then, but Kyven was still haunted by her elder sister dying in such a way. She was never sure whether to grieve her or not.

“Kyven?” Gilchrist’s deep voice called her back to the present, and she looked at him, turning her head his way. The heat he emanated made her warm again, and it somehow made it easier to forget the darkness of the past. “All will be well. I promise ye that.”

“How can ye ken that?” she asked, her voice shaking a little. “The council insist I marry, so a new laird can be found fer the clan.”

“There are some good things tae marriage,” he said, the smallest of smiles pulling at his lips.

“Ye mean like the happiness we have found in this room?” she asked, feeling brave but regretting the words a second later.

“Aye, maybe yer husband will read tae ye, as I dae.”

A sudden coldness washed over her body, and she looked away from him, into the flames.

He will never look at me as a possible wife.

She had to push away all the pictures she’d ever had of her and Captain Gilchrist together. She had often dreamt of the two of them, sitting in this room, reading and drawing into the late hours. What would it be like if a small child ran between them, with her green eyes and Gilchrist’s black hair? She always pretended in front of other people that she couldn’t care less for Gilchrist but deep inside, her truth was different.

“Knock, knock,” a familiar voice called from the doorway.

Kyven looked around, surprised to be disturbed in this room. She considered the library her haven, her place to be alone with Gilchrist.

In the doorway stood Aaden. He had been Elliot’s man-at-arms when he had stood in place of the laird of the clan, and still occupied the position, though he was not their war leader. These days, that role resided with Captain Gilchrist.

Aaden’s dark blond hair was ruffled, as if a lover had just trailed a hand through it. His rather full beard these days was neat in comparison and as he leaned on the doorframe, she noticed one of the laces of his doublet was tied at an odd angle, as if he had just thrown it on. She sighed loudly, realizing he must have seduced one of her maids again.

“Nae disturbing, am I?” he said with a mischievous smile, leaning on the frame. “Only, ye’d think the two of ye might be locked in an embrace, based on the amount of time ye spend alone in this room together.”

“Aaden!” she snapped at him, her face blushing as purple as a beetroot. She refused to turn around and meet Gilchrist’s eye. “Just because ye jump into bed with every woman in me clan, doesnae mean every man is like ye.”

“Nae every woman.” Aaden winked at her. “I havenae found a bed with ye in it yet, have I?”

“Aaden.” Gilchrist’s warning tone only made Aaden laugh all the more, tipping his head back and guffawing.

“Ye ken I would never dae that tae me lady.” He bowed ostentatiously. “Now, before I can tease ye and make poor Lady Kyven’s face even redder, ye are needed Gilchrist. The scouts have returned and seen movements of the other clans’ soldiers. They wish tae talk tae ye.”

“I’m coming.” Gilchrist stood. Kyven looked up at him, wondering if the fear showed on her face.

It was something the council had talked to her about an awful lot, how without a laird in place, someone could seek to take advantage of their weakness as a clan and attack to take the land for themselves.

“It will be nothing tae worry about,” Gilchrist said, pausing beside her, his voice deepening. “Trust me,” he added. “Any soldier would have tae fight me tae get here, and I’ll be as ruthless as the devil in his fiery hell tae stop them.” With these impassioned words, spoken so calmly he might as well have been talking about the weather, Kyven shuddered in a kind of delight.

She waited, watching as Gilchrist left. Aaden didn’t follow him thought, just standing in the doorway, staring at her.

“Ye dinnae need tae blush so much now. He’s gone.”

“Then dinnae make such comments like that in future. Ye are simply poking at something that isnae there.”

“Ah, Kyven.” He sighed loudly and stepped into the room. “I could jest about ye and Captain Gilchrist all day, but unfortunately, business calls and the council want ye.”

“What fer?” she asked, noting that all traces of humor had left Aaden completely.

“They have found a husband fer ye.”